i'd still say, this is destiny

ARE YOU A TRUE BLUE CHEENA?

2008-05-10T05:52:00.000-07:00

CHINESE EYE TEST!
If you cannot decipher anything, then try pulling the corners of both your eyes as if you were a Chinese. It works!
indians and malays may have to pull the corners of their eyes, as for my chinese counterparts, i rest my case (:
ps:// marc! this should be no problem for you! HAHA! (:

the unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
i miss you (:

Stay with me tonight

2008-04-11T05:00:00.000-07:00

Today i met a fellow peircean that i have not seen since i graduated.
i was close to him in sec 2 &i rmb how we msged everyday.
today when i was in the train and he tapped my shoulder, i turned and immediately MELTED!
he changed so much, and looks more mature and grown up now,
but what really captivated me was his super fit and macho body + GOOD LOOKS!
and it was nice cause he was friendly and talked abt alot of things before i finally alighted!
&before i left he said, hope we bump into one another often,
in my heart i screamed YEAHHHHHHH! WHY NOT!
peirceans who are curious to know who im talking abt pm me!

&i met lynard too! (: and he was nice cause he stopped to talk to me too!

met my cousin at town after school,
she got herself a tattoo!
&really think its damn cool,
inspired by bob marley!
no woman, no cry!
no man, i won't die! (inside joke!)
had dinner at pastamania and wanted to watch a movie but there were no early time slots!
she paid for everything! ((:

her tattoo! its her horoscope &name!

this feeling sucks :(

2008-04-10T03:51:00.000-07:00

my sleeping problems are getting up my nerves.
i don't see why my biological clock is so screwed.
i feel sleepy at the oddest times
but feel extremely awake at the time that im spose to be snoring away in bed.
KNN CCB!

there's a pasar malam in yishun
and i wanna eat ramly burger.

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

damn.

funny how you managed to work your way into my heart; im amazed myself

2008-04-07T03:01:00.000-07:00

CHIJ KATONG CONVENT'S DANCE CONCERT ((:
definitely worth every penny of the $10 i paid!
full-fledged entertainment for ard 2 hrs!
the opening performance was damn good,
and the couple salsa was DAMN SEXY!
and best of all JACLYN'S hip hop was to die for!
MY FRIEND MAY BE SMALL & TINY ARHH,
but mind you she's an atom bomb on stage!
the way she shook her butt and grooved!
next im looking forward to yj's pathetic concert,
but cause my sweet thing's going to be doing a solo,
it ain't that pathetic anymore! ((((:

today nic and jac were missing from school,
so it was me and shalini,
hell, she made me laugh till i teared!
with the crazy things she does!
ps:// shalini i hope the timetable u planned for urself till 4amworks out!

and today desmond was mean!
he claims its a funny story but its not!
i was innocently eating my 60 cents beehoon in the canteen,
when desmond came from behind and BOO-ed me,
and i got so panic and dropped the chilli coated noodles onto my blouse and skirt!
then i had chilli all over me!
and desmond said,
THE MORAL OF THE STORY IS NOT TO EAT CHILLI!
haha! but he was nice enough to run and get me tissue la! haha!
HE SHOULD!

I MISS JAC AND NIC! ((:

2008-04-04T23:04:00.001-07:00

when everything else fails,
prunes, i promise i'd still be here for you (:

at the rate of my uncontrollable lavish spendings, my atm is plausibly dry and empty now. stupid karan was sniggering at my bank balance. ASSHOLE.

i wanna let out a bitter diatribe against this particular person
yet, im kinda stumped.

i try to convince myself it doesn't bother me
pass it off facetiously, as though i couldn't care less,
what more with friends and all by my side
yet
glum thoughts intercede my mind helplessly, from time to time
plunging me into a whirl of dismal.

oh well.
i think i've accumulated sufficient case studies
to account for my lackadaisical attitude towards trust.
i think i'd go with doubt, paranoia.
yea, tiresome it may be. fuck it, at least i won't have to go throught this shit again.

at the rate i'm frowning,
i'll look like a bulldog at 30. :(

LIT ESSAY LIT ESSAY LIT ESSAY!
bye world! (:

SEX IN IRELAND

2008-04-04T02:38:00.000-07:00

after conquering the top of the charts for 6 months in a row,
there has been rumours that OK BAH will be staging a musical,
SEX IN IRELAND (:

HAHA (:
the past few days, during breaks,
nicole, shalini and i have been recording music videos and practicing our vocals.
shalini seems to have a "forte" in soprano singing judging from the way she pulls her voice trying her best to hit the high notes. attempts have been futile nonetheless.
nicole has shown promising progess, while jac has been a rather passive member!
so today, since we've proved to be such great singers, we decided upon doing a musical.
as the title suggests, its a rather explicit movie with high levels of sexual content (:
im ADELE, the young and aspiring career woman who is the managing director of a popular magazine company!
jaclyn's JAS, the single mum with a huge passion for dance but because of her baby, she is unable to pursue her dream!
shalini keeps changing her role and character name, but i think she's the heartbroken woman who's about to get engaged but finds out her guy slept with another woman, and as a result she turns into an alcoholic and decides to take revenge on the man by sleeping with many other man while he tries to lure her back to give him his own dose of medicine.
(shalini's opening scene is really one to look out for!)
nicole, sasa, is the psycho and sicko babysitter that rapes and molests the children she babysits.
but all in all the four of us are the BEST OF FRIENDS in the movie and we stand by one another through thick and thin! (((:

thats what i go to school for!

BASTARDS.
seriously. ALL.
if you think you're one of them i'm referring to,
then you may just be right (:

loving you is easy cause you're beautiful

2008-04-02T03:52:00.000-07:00

3 MORE DAYS TO THE WEEKENDS (:
my life officially commences on friday 4.10pm!

the weather lately has been pretty horrible.
its scorching hot, and you literally feel your uniform stick onto you like some figure hugging top, then i resort to finding utmost satisfaction in ice cubes. and when i get home, the heat is practically like trapped in my home and even after i shower with icy cold water, the heat still gets to me! mummy's aircon bill is going to explode this month, but thank god she understands!

anyway,
YAY! this week's been happy,
world's turning from sepia to one thats a tad bit more colourful.
& i think its cause of the people around me,
wonderful, wonderful people.
shalini, jac &nic are all i ever need to combat the mundane school days!
we created a band, no shalini created it.
we're called OK BAH! and shalini allocated roles for all of us and she's supposedly the leader.
but its good, cause we sing in our rather un-melodious voices everyday and yet we feel like we're the new age madonna or leona lewis. and how shalini pulls her notes and gets the rest of us into stitches! life's been pretty good!
and how we plan abt the world tour we'd be having after the A's!
LOVE YOU 3 GIRLS! (:

then this sat, its jac's dance concert at SJI
after which, hopefully, the girls would be crashing my house for the night!
i like how we behave like the A's are already over and we all attained 7 STRAIGHT A'S!

i distanced myself from certain people,
funny how they don't realise its intentional.
not because im too caught up with my other group of friends
or that im suffering from a personality dichotomy
so stop judging pls.
they're just superficial and hypocritical
so much so thats its hard to be who i am in front of them
if they read this, i hope it strikes a chord in their heart.

i didnt do very well for the blocks,
wait, i didnt at all do well for the blocks,
i think my parents are going to lock me up forever after the parents-teacher-session!

ive been watching music and lyrics over and over again on hbo!
i love hugh grant! he's so sexy, esp when he dances in the second song!
in his tight pants! and drew barrymore's so pretty!
i love the song they sand!
all i want to do is find a way back into love,
i can't make it through without a way back into love!

i miss jag& arveen alotalot!
this has been the longest time that i've not seen them! :(

now i shall go do spencer's essay which i have been procrastinating since last thursday.
god knows how im going to fill 2 sides of the foolscap paper when i have no clue about what the question requires.
platonic vision? and how it conceptualises who gatsby really is in reality!
oh man, kill me!
BYE!

2008-03-14T10:32:00.000-07:00

JAG thinks im easily amazed but i think this is quite cool. Im kinda slow but i just realised that my phone can be used to surf the net n logon to ebuddy! Damn cool. Truly technology at its best!

stop &stare.

2008-03-12T09:55:00.000-07:00

late night meet-ups at the void deck,
peanut butter sandwiches and piping hot coffee,
the stupid stuff we say,
the totally brainless arguments we get involved in,
and the way we get so easily amused,
the way we call jag "JAGVEER" just to see him pissed.

how i see all of you everyday,
yet i look forward to seeing you'll AGAIN&AGAIN!

i couldn't ask for more,
i'm pretty blessed to have you all.

JAGVEER, ARVEEN &KARAN,
wo ai ni (:

MUTTONS ARE THE SEX :)

&we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again.

2008-03-07T05:17:00.000-08:00

CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THOSE THAT DID EXCEPTIONALLY WELL FOR A'S & ACHIEVED THE GRADES YOU WISHED FOR ((: ARISA, ROHAN, HONREN! CONGRATS!

&to those that didn't reach up to their expectations, don't be disheartened, its not the end of the road, i'm sure there's still hope for everyone of you (:

&i'll miss you.

RANDOM (:

2008-03-01T01:53:00.000-08:00

i was typing my gp essay and a pop-up popped,
it had a picture, and i thought, "eh timothy david?"
then it occured to me.
it bothers me how timothy david has so much resemblance to barack obama!

for those that don't know, timothy david is a teacher in yj.

MUMMY'S D&D ((:

2008-02-23T17:18:00.000-08:00

mum's D&D at Le Meridien yesterday and every year her company never fails to make the evening so grand (: the food was great and the emcee was hilarious! my mum got 3 trophies, Top 20 producer, Top 3 Producer and 10 year Long Service Award! &her face was out in the classifieds too! (:

YAY! &KARAN'S FINALLY BACK! ((:

2008-02-22T22:11:00.000-08:00

i know the word "I" is selfish,
but in today's post, I bitch and YOU listen.

life's been such a disaster lately, and everything just seems to get from bad to worst.
i' ve been thinking alot lately, and that's not a good sign.
this loneliness that sets in everyday kills me. you know the kind of feeling, like there's so many people around you and yet you feel like there's no one. how sometimes you feel that the people around you are pretending. everyone belongs in one clique or another, but im just that miserable wondering soul that hops from one to another. how i have to try so damn fucking hard just to try and fit in. because im not chinese, because i don't have that much freedom. it sucks so bad when everyone congregates into their small little cliques to talk and i find myself between cliques. how they be with you in class, probably cause they are forced to talk to you, then the moment the bell rings and school ends, they all move away and find other friends, leaving u stranded again. school's not the place i enjoy going to anymore. when i tell people i don't enjoy school and i hate the place, its not that im lazy and don like studying. i just hate the environment, i just hate the loneliness. i've never felt this way before. i miss my toiletgangers and my wildcats alot :( now it just seems like im alone.

then comes schoolwork. im seriously not made for a JC. im dumb. when i got withdrawn in the first yr, i have no idea what made me think i could study hard and prove otherwise in my 2nd yr. i spend 3 years in YJ and still i ask myself where am i going. im not giving up so soon, but somehow i'm able to foresee how things are going to be like when i get my results.

on a brighter note,
thank you jaclyn for getting me oreo cheesecake (:
i was really touched and im sorry if i didnt look that enthusiastic but THANK YOU (:
i love jaclyn jiang jieying!

Sometimes I Wake Up Crying At Night
And Sometimes I Scream Out Your Name
What Right Does She Have To Take You Away
When For So Long, You Were Mine

TO THE BESTEST DAD(:

2008-02-17T08:38:00.001-08:00

for the times you fed me milk,
for the times you held my little fingers and taught me to walk,
for the times you brought me to the zoo to see all the animals which i foolishly thought only existed in books,
for the times you corrected me when i said "is-land" instead of "island",
for the times you bought me pretty barbie doll pink bicycles,
for the times i would cry and demand barbie dolls and you'd never fail to get me the limited edition ones,
for the times you got me polly pocket sets and play-doh though mummy didn't allow,
for the times mummy's friends mistook you for her younger brother,
for the times my friends said you were so damn good looking,
for the times you defended me when mummy wanted to beat me,
for the times you broke the came mummy bought cause you didn't like the idea of her hitting me,
for the times you secretly bought me sweets,
for the times you secretly give me extra allowance now,
DAD, I LOVE YOU.
though i'm rude to you at times and i annoy & dissappoint you,
and sometimes you lose your temper with me,
you're still the only dad i would want in my every lifetime,
for you've given me the best any child could ever wish for.

this is a toast for the greatest dad in the world,
HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY DAD! (:
RAHUL AND I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

huggs and kisses,
ginny (:

(the card i made for my daddy, and then he cried)

HAPPY VALENTINE'S (:

2008-02-13T08:39:00.000-08:00

hello (: im blogging after a very long time. (:
haven't been busy, just lazy (:
school's been crazy, homework's just been piling on my desk.
the long hours in school kills me physically &mentally.
thank god for the classmates and ex-128, they make school A LOT more bearable.
teacher's have been pms-y, BIO especially.
i simply want time to fly by (:

valentine's day,
how sweet, tmr we're all going to be exchanging little pressies here and there (:
roses, chocolates, hugs, kisses (:
HAPPY VALENTINE'S ONE AND ALL!

'Cause this is real, and this is good.
It warms the inside just like it should,
but most of all it's built to last.
'Cause you are the sun in my universe,
considered the best when we've felt the worst
and most of all it's built to last. ((:

DEAREST ARISA (:

2008-01-16T02:31:00.000-08:00

Today, I was in my room talking to Des when my maid knocked on my room door. When i opened, she handed me a fairprice bag & the picture above reveals what I saw. The first thing I asked my aunty was "Who passed you this &where is she now?" I looked around but Arisa was nowhere to be seen. Arisa passed the cake to my aunty at the gate and left. I don't blame her for that.

I am sorry Arisa, sorry for everything. Sometimes, I just don't know what I'm so caught up with that i end up neglecting the people around me. I know you've been asking me to come over to your place time and again since my birthday, but i've just been spending too much time with other people, not thinking about you. I never meant for things to be this way and like what you said in your blog I am not mad at you for being a bad friend. You've NEVER been a bad friend in my eyes. if anyone is to be mad, then it should be you, cause seriously i've been a bitch. i don't know whats happening to me but i've really changed. i've become such an ungrateful and selfish person. you're not the first person's that's mad at me. you're not the first person thats walked away from me. sometimes i feel afraid when friends get too close to me, cause i've this history of always hurting the people that are close to me. i'm seriously not the kind of friend that anyone would like to keep for long. i never have the intentions to hurt the people around me but unconsciously i always seem to.

well to everyone out there, if you're my friend, dont have to high expectations from me, dont always think that i can be the one that sets everything right, don confide in me too much cause at the end of the day, i always seem to let everyone down.

I'm sorry Arisa. I just hope for things to be better and i will try to make things better. I just need you to understand that im really having problems at home. my mother has really been unreasonable and she's been after me everyday. she doesn't let me do anything, i currently have no freedom at home. She just wants me to study study study. after school, i cant even hang out with my friends cause at 5.30 she starts calling me over and over.

but thanks arisa, kaiheng &honren for the cake.
i appreciate the effort and the cake's really nice (:
i'm just sorry for being a fucking bitch.

The bestest birthday ever ((:

2008-01-15T04:09:00.000-08:00

((: nineTEEN (:HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINNY & SONI (:doesn't it look like he's the one that's turning 19?thanks kyle ((:
&thanks carisa, constance, daryl, guohua meeting up! (:
the bestest wishes granted, the bestest gifts received (:
remember the wishlist i made in the previous post?
here's how it looks like now ((:
-~~topshop voucher~~ ((: YONGWEN (:
- ~~silver/ black clutches~~ ((: VALENCIA & COONIE(:
- BAGS ((:
- ~~swatch watch~~ ((: MUMMY&DADDY (:
- anklet ((:
- ~~burberry brit perfume~~ ((: ROHAN(:
- ~~guess wallet~~ ((: ALLISON (:
& ~~dorothy perkins voucher~~ ((: CARISA & GUOHUA (:

THANK YOU EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU FOR MAKING THIS 19th so beautiful! (:
thank you mummy &daddy for the birthday party, thank you relatives for coming over, thank you everyone for all the birthday wishes, thank you to the above-mentioned people for showering me with such expensive gifts, thank you to those who spend the day with me (:

much love, hugs and kisses to everyone of you (:

ATTENTION!

2008-01-11T05:05:00.000-08:00

HELLO FRIENDS((:
IF ANY OF YOU WERE INTENDING TO BUY ME THE BURBERRY BRIT PERFUME,
THEN PLEASE DON'T,
CAUSE SOMEONE ELSE ALREADY GOT IT FOR ME (((:

THANK YOU ROHAN ((:

if you think you made my 2007 special, read on ((:

2008-01-07T03:20:00.000-08:00

one year's come. one year's gone.
how time just walks past you and in the blink of an eye, its 2008.
do we look forward and hope for a better year, or reminisce the moments we had in 2007.

well, for me 2007 has probably been the most insignificant year up-to-date. in one word, 2007 was "mundane". 2007 has been different. in '07 alone, my emotions have been through a rollercoaster ride and i've been left heart wrenched time &again. so many things happened in just this year and they all happened so fast. friends made, friends lost, heart-breaks, sucky grades. i gave people my everything this year, only to have them walking out of me as and when they wanted to. the ones that i thought were true, appeared to be the ones that were never around. the one best friend i had, couldn't accept my flaws and walked out on me. the others, took me on a joyride.

2007's been a little upsetting &a little regretful.

but at the same time, 2007's been a little beautiful ((:
A BIG THANK YOU TO;
toiletgang: you guys are never forgotten though we seldon meet. every single one of you still mean alot to me despite the fact that we have moved on with lives! hopefully we meet up soon ok (:

128: fadhil shalini yongwen allison jaclyn nicole jeremy desmond nadirah yeeyew wanqing veenee. without you guys lectures &tutorials would have really been damn dreadful. fortunately, 128 had a bunch of clowns that made lessons a little more enjoyable and bearable. seriously, i pity all the teachers that had to put up with our extreme behaviors but all in all, i'm really glad that i met such fine people like all of you. ((:

fadhil ((: you're probably the closest friend i had in 128 cause of the amount of time we spent together watching god-knows-how-many-movies &th usual hangouts we had everyday after school. its been one hell of a crazy half year with you and i must say we've been through alot. the things we both did to annoy one another &i'll never forget the one time you abandoned me in town. hahas ((: but well, you made the first half of the year fly so quickly. thanks for being there for me when i needed someone, thanks for being th bestest friend anyone could ask for ((: now, i still sometimes wish that you were around school to make the environment less dull, but its impossible. hopefully, you don't disappear this year ((:

shalini ((: you've made school really really fun! you know how jeremy actually teases you and says you'll be lonely if i'm not around, well just so you know, same goes for me. without you in school, the day just seems to drag cause there's no one around to do the silly things you do or say the craziest things you say! and then, no one goes, "OH MY GOD I AM FATIGUE-ING!" hahas! i love you shalu! ((: though i disturb you all the time, you just don;t know how much you mean to me &i love you very very much!

yongwen((: no matter what i do or say, i'm just never be able to thank you enough for the things you have done for me up till date. thank you for the late night calls, listening to me whine and cry over the phone, staying on the line until i actually cry my heart out, helping me when i needed financial assistance. im really touched with everything tht you have done for me! &like how you always catch me before i fall and land hard on my face, i'll be there for you too ((: LOVES!

allison jaclyn nadirah nicole ((: you guys have made 2007 a blast, with the silly girly gossips and the mass ponning of school and lessons! haha! we were so united in doing all the wrong things! i'm so glad we all promoted ((: love you all!

desmond,jeremy &yeeyew! THE CLASS CLOWNS. despite the racist comments and sarcastic comments you guys threw at everyone of us, i really appreciate the fact that you all made lessons SO DAMN FUN! ((: &desmond, thanks again for being there when i needed help! ((:

WILDCATS ((: arisa zhiqiang kaiheng joel honren, i miss every single one of you very very much. school without you all is no fun. during breaks i can no longer find all of you in the library mugging and after school, i can't go home with you all anymore. but well, its been a tough yr for all of you studying for the A's (now is my turn!) and i hope you are all enjoying this break you have!
arisa((: you've been a gem! a super shiny sparkling gem that has brightened the whole 2007! i probably got closer to you in '07 and i feel so attached to you now! everything that happens to me, you're among the first to know! THANK YOU SO MUCH ARISA for everything, for just being there for me throughout, pulling me out of the bad times i had, knocking sense into me and making me a stronger person! ((: you always think you're ot good enough to be a friend, but still, you're the best i've ever had ((: MWAHS! miss you!

zhiqiang ((: there's no one to take the 7.07 train with me every morning to school. there's no one around school gullible like you where i can fool you a million times and you fall into my trap each and every time! thank you for putting up with my nonsense all the time! ((:

peiru((: i only got closer to you this year and i have no regrets getting closer to you! you gentle voice and slutty behavior has made you such a lovable person! and your nature is just so great that you take everything that comes to you positively and somehow or another you always try your best to be there for all your friends! ((: you're one in a million!

THE GUYS. joel kaiheng honren ((:, the bunch of jokers, public nuisance, the racist jokes, the crazy things you guys did that made me smile, thank you so much for it all! ((:

ravin((: dearest cousin, i better add you in the list or you might just jump off the cliff! HAHA ((: anyways, like always, over the years, you have always been by my side helping me sort out every difficulty i had, giving me the best of advices, making me think practically ((: whenever i have a problem, it just feels so good to know that you're just a call away! (: THANK YOU!

JAG ARVEEN KARAN! ((: i made my confessions to you guys face to face so here's just to say I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH! ((: JAG, 13 years and going strong (: karan, come home soon, i miss you! (:

last but not the least
ROHAN ((: like i said in previous posts, you were not the guy i used to hang out with in school but yet through messages and msn conversations, i've come to realise that you're the true-est friend i've ever had ((: thanks for always being that person i could trust all my problems with, giving me advice to help me move on with life. im sorry for teasing you with _ _ _ _ _ all the time though. HAHAS (: just like you to know, i can never find the words to show how much gratitude i have for the things you have done for me ((: thank you! you really helped me a hell lot!

a little late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ((: may 2008 be a better year for every single one of us! (:

ooh, &i was wondering, why not add in my birthday wishlist! ((: im a tad bit too demanding but what to do, i'm a girl (: beautiful pple, pick ur choice (: hahas! joking!
- topshop voucher ((:
- ~~silver/ black clutches~~ ((:
- BAGS ((:
- ~~swatch watch~~ ((:
- anklet ((:
- ~~burberry brit perfume~~ ((:
- guess wallet ((:
- &finally, a day out with toiletgang, wildcats, 128, jag&arveen & YOU (((:

COLOURFUL DAYS! ((:

2007-12-21T22:30:00.000-08:00

Thus far, SANDEEP'S wedding has been th blast. Henna ceremony on Thurs brought immense joy for everyone when we all came together and sang songs from way back the early centuries till now! It was cute how we sat in a big circle and how some of us went in the middle of the circle to dance occasionally. &what was even more amazing was to have th oldies in the age range of about 60-80 to sing and dance in the middle of th circle too. & well not to forget, Sandeep's dog had a shot on the dancefloor too! HAHAS ((: the moment was priceless!

Yesterday's Mehfil Di Raat at Singapore Swimming Club was so alive. From the hall, to the beautifully dressed people, to the awesome looking couple, to the catered food, to all the performances, then to the JAGOH &finally to the dancefloor, ALL OF US ENJOYED TREMENDOUSLY! Thou, Jag, Arveen, Roshni, Sanjay, Rishi, Rahul, Amit, Sandeep & I only had 2 days to rehearse, we still rocked the stage for 15 minutes and got ourselves a standing ovation! Many people were especially impressed by Sandeep's special entrance in our performance! ((: Arveen & I couldn't help but smile throughout the night! &i think the Punjabi culture is simply beautiful cause when the grandmothers' of both the bride and the groom carried the Jagoh, the whole hall stood and danced along and that moment in itself was so surreal. When i turned, I saw Sandeep wiping tears from his cheeks! &knowing that I caught him red-handed, he blushed! Soon after, the dancefloor was open, and almost everyone went insane! But you know, the one that completely dominated the dancefloor was none other than Sandeep's DAD! HAHAHAHAS! HE WAS OH SO CUTE!! In Jag's words, "Steady, mabuk already now he's gonna shake some ass!" HAHA!There were MANY seats around, but yet the men stood there rooted to the ground, know why? FREE FLOW OF WHISKEY!

Today's supposedly the oil bath ceremony for Sandeep, but I couldn't wake up in the morning so only my mum went. Tomorrow's the BIG DAY, the actual wedding! ((: The whole day is going to be jam packed, with the wedding in the temple in the morning, then lunch at Khalsa & lastly dinner reception in Hyatt hotal at night, where the lot of us are going to perform again! (((:

BANGS! BANGS! BANGS!

2007-12-18T03:43:00.000-08:00

Finally garnered enough guts to cut bangs. I'm quite happy with the outcome though many pple prefer the old hairstyle.

&im not going to Genting with my cousins tomorrow cause i got food poisoning. :(

GOTTA GO!

2007-12-17T19:15:00.000-08:00

Last night, Allison taught me how to printscreen! &since she patiently taught me, i decided to show her my gratitude by expressing love for her. &this is how she reciprocated;

Now, tell me, where is the love?

BUT YOU KNOW, i finally learn how to take screenshots! ((((:

HADY FIRST ASIAN IDOL SEHHHHH!

2007-12-16T20:24:00.000-08:00

ASIA shocked the intestines out of my body last night when HADY MIRZA was declared as the very first ASIAN IDOL!
HADY MIRZA WON ASIAN IDOL? is asia serious! like really really serious!
YEA, i must say i was secretly hoping that HADY would win not cause he sings well, the other Asian idols were a tad bit better but HADY IS GOOD LOOKING LA! so damn frigging cute& sexy! &&my dad&mum who were pinning hopes on their indian idol were disappointed and had SO MUCH TO SAY once hady was declared winner! &i think Singapore's kinda supportive, cause compared to every other idol standing, we probably have the smallest population, yet he won. I VOTED OKAY!
but i'm still shocked la, cause i didn't expect him to win still. &i screamed so loud and woke poor daddy from his sleep!

AND....
daddy says i should stop predicting stuff, especially soccer results :(

Just like a tattoo, i'll always have you

2007-12-14T23:07:00.000-08:00

READ ON, it'll make you ponder

You know there are many types of friends. Childhood friends, the kind that saw you growing up together with them, held your hand as you grew through different phase, the ones that have lived with you enough & now they know you inside out. Then there are best friends, the one you trust your life with, the one that you meet everyday and yet when you go home, you still call and there's just so much to say. The ones that you'll probably do anything for cause well, they're the best friends. Then there's close friends, those you hang around with every now and then, laughing at silly things and lastly mere acquaintances, the ones that are "hi-bye", the ones you see around everyday.

I was talking to someone online the other day and we started talking about friends. And he said something that was really true. In life we meet plenty of people and somehow or another, they all become friends and sometimes even our best-est friends, but at the end of the day, how do we know if the people we met are true? How do we really know if they're really worth our friendship? It always take an argument to test how true the friendship really is. No matter how bad the argument, your true friend should just never walk out on you. He didn't mean to imply anything but yet he made me realize a lot of things eversince and he made me stronger.

&then i realised, he's such a gem of a friend. In YJ, you could never see me hanging around with him. In the very first year, we were classmates, only for ONE subject. He had his own group of friends and I had mine. There was never really a time that you could see us actually sitting together during a break joking and laughing like how i would with the rest. Yet, i feel so comfortable when i talk to him online. You know, the kind of person you can say absolutely anything to without fearing that he would get offended, the one person you can tell everything thats bothering you to without being afraid that he's going to judge you and that one person that you can tell your deepest darkest secrets too without reminding him to keep it to himself, cause you trust him more than you trust yourself sometimes. He was never physically around to hear me out, and well you can say though we were in YJ, our main source of conversations were through MSN, where we shared laughter, silly jokes, bitched about certain people and shared some problems. And though I've never been there for him much when he needed someone, somehow me being around means a lot to him and he appreciates the fact that I've just been around. &sometimes when he thanks me, i start to wonder what he's really thanking me for? &thats when i discovered, that this friendship got stronger cause we held no expectations in one another. We just accepted each other for the individuals we were, and today i dare say that I've met a true friend.

He doesn't know this probably, but seriously, he's such a great human being. He's never been physically around, but I know when I need someone, he's around somewhere. ((:

But, besides him there's been a couple of true ones around too, who have been physically there for me always, whose been there to support me through troubled days and i can't thank them enough!

MY MUM IS COOLER THAN YOURS!

2007-12-14T09:26:00.000-08:00

&i've been smiling all the way since i got back home just now, my mum's generosity throughout this past week has added an array of colours to my otherwise monochromatic life! I AM A HAPPY LARK ((: mummy's been awfully sweet! The presidential treatment i simply relish! Over the span of 2 days, mummy has splurged a total of around $400 on her dearest daughter! (((: Not like i didn't love her before this, but seriously i love my mum hell loads! yes, i might complain about how unreasonable she gets at times, but i think I'm blessed with a super cool mum!

On Wed, Umairah&i FINALLY went on our much anticipated shopping trip. Well, finally is in caps cause we've always been planning to meet and shop together but somehow, school always came in the way of our plans. My mother was L-O-V-E cause she slipped her POSB card into my hands and told me to buy whatever i wanted, but Meyaa was L-O-V-E to the max cause she accompanied me after school and picked out pretty clothes for me to try on! We met in orchard and first stop was Topshop, then Dorothy Perkins, then off to Peninsula plaza where i bought my black skinnes, cardigan and bohemian skirt! So in total on that day, I came home with 3 blouses, 1 skinnies, 1 cardigan, 1 bohemian skirt and spent a total of $300 plus?
UMAIRAH I LOVE YOU ((: seriously! next time if u need someone to teman you shopping, message me alrighty? and on sun, you're going to get your fair share of shopping when you head out to town with your mum! COACH WALLET! ((:

Thurs, it was the day out with the best-est classmates, Shalini, Desmond, Yongwen&Jaclyn. Went around town window shopping then had lunch at Swensen's! Poor Desmond didn't get to satisfy his Seoul Garden craving cause Shalini doesn't fancy meat and half-heartedly he dragged himself to Swensen's! ((: The Swensen's opposite Taka is strange cause all their dishes are freakihly white. The soup was called Spicy Clam Chowder and the word spicy would automatically give you the reddish image right but somehow the soup was PURE WHITE! and our dishes were all white too, like the melted cheese and all. Strange but delicious nonetheless! After a while, Arisa joined us. Sat around, ate, crapped, took pictures, shared ice-cream <33

Today was day out with mum&Rahul, and we shopped AGAIN! Mummy bought lots of stuff, rahul too and i bought my white Nike bag that I've been eyeing! My mum's the best, seriously. She's been really sick with high temperature over the past couple of days but yet she's been the really great! ((:

YONGWEN!
I'm warning you! DON'T BE SAD! I'll call my gang and you know my gang got great fighters! hahas! Anyway, don be sad ok! i love you v.v.v.much! &you know when you are sad right, you look horribly ugly! &you know cupcakes are supposed to be sweet and the only way to look sweet is to smile and laugh! This is just a bad phase, I'll be here to chase your blues away! ((: MWAHS!

2007-12-07T10:41:00.000-08:00

its 2.41am now, &im still not sleepy. i think the batteries in my biological clock's weak already.

&i think you're really nice. was viewing certain friendster profiles and i realised like how you treasure her as a friend, she obviously doesn't quite give a fuck about you, though she talks to you once in a while, you're just not as important to her as she is to you. &yet she still remains number 1 on your list of friends and perhaps loved one. lucky her.

this is random, but i love you arisa ((:
i read your blog &i know how pms-ey days can really get you so annoyed, upset and paranoid over trivial matters. we girls are really unlucky to have to go through this phase once EVERY month. but you know this bad phase is only going to last for a week, then things are going to be back to normal again. just hang in there, everything will be alright soon ((: your dreams not going to come true, he's not going to leave you! SMILE!
i love you very very very much &im just a phone call away! MWAHS!

2007-12-06T09:02:00.000-08:00

SIGH :(
so all along what we hoped &prayed for to be only a rumor turned out to be true.
128's no longer going to be together, and we've been split and thrown into different classes.
on one hand i'm happy cause i've actually got shalini, jeremy, nicole, jacyln but its still fucked up cause there's no yongwen, ally &desmond.

next year's going to suck really bad &im feeling dreadful already. it sucks cause im so attached to 128 already &now the school drops the bomb that we're in different classes. not having arisa around school was enough to drive me nuts and not not having yongwen, ally and desmond in my class....FUCK WHY-JC

You got me to a magical high.

2007-12-06T04:07:00.000-08:00

Caught Hitman today &i feel like killing the person who told me that its a must watch! THANK YOU VERY MUCH JAG! ((: So the movie was very very action packed, the kind that girls don't normally enjoy. The lead actor ( i don't know his name, its something funny, timothy elephant or olyphant, something like that) was rather cute from certain angles and the girl lead was hot but her breast-showing was rather dumb and out of place! maybe guys would beg to differ? Yeahhs, so it was boring la, i almost fell asleep! Thank god for the company i had cause he made the movie less boring and a little bit more bearable with many random things he said and asked that got me cracking up. ALVIN &the CHIPMUNKS next alrighty?

&today i realised that i have a really sweet friend, cause whatever i say really impacts him alot! hahas, nowadays not many friends actually pay much attention to what you say especially when it comes to personal life decisions but my friend does even though he knows i was only joking. as touched as i am, i feel really guilty though cause i crashed something that could have been :( &he probably hates me and wanna strangle me to death now, sorry! but hahas, you're darn sweet la!

Finally i got to meet my two lovelies on monday during the bbq at zhiqiang's place! So the three of us did quite alot of labour and we bbq-ed and served the rest ((: arisa &peiru did the most job though continuously grilling lots and lots of food! spent time with wildcats and the rest after a really long time, &i hate the thought that i won't have them in school next year anymore :(

On Tuesday, it was Newton circus with jeremy, desmond &yongwen! i finally had my fill or stingray, hokkien mee, satay, chicken wings. time spent with them is always good so there was a lot of laughter. then we were so full and decided to walk to novena square where we had desserts! after that, left to meet jag by bus while the three of them walked from novena to bishan! hahahs! crazy people!

ANYWAYS yesterday, nicole&allison both turned 17, so
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLINGS!
hope the both of you had a blast ((:

it lasted forever, but ended too fast.

2007-12-05T05:43:00.000-08:00

All in all, today was great. Never felt this good before, never felt this special before and its all thanks to you i guess. ((:

So today morning, i was suppose to wake up at 9am cause i was suppose to go to the zoo with Mr Nice (obviously not his real name!), but knowing me i overslept and only woke up at around 12 plus. Well you can't really blame me, it was pouring out there, fucking cats and dogs and what better way to enjoy the cool breeze then to sleep in longer. So yeahhs, when i woke up and checked my phone, i realised i had 14 missed calls from him! HAHAS! i'm sincerely so sorry alright! And i returned the call and Mr Nice forgave me immediately and asked me what i was planning to do for the rest of the day. So i planned to sleep a little bit longer, then wake up and accompany my mum to buy rahul's school books then off to vivo for shopping. My mum and rahul went out and i continued to sleep when someone knocked on my door!

&yeahhs, in my most unglam state, i opened the door with a tinge of anger and was about to scold my mum for not bringing the keys when i realised that Mr Nice was standing there, before me, partially drenched from the rain with lots of plastic bags in his hands! And then he held up the plastic bags and went, "LUNCH!". HAHA! it took me sometime to digest the fact that he was standing there and i stood rooted to the ground until he went, "you're not opening the door?" hahahs! So he read my previous post where i was so badly craving for newton circus food and he didn't know that i already had my fair share of food from yesterday's outing with jeremy, desmond &yongwen and so he bought stingray, hokkien mee, prawns, sotong and sugar cane! HAHA! So much food for just 2 people! &being a girl, its normal that i teared cause i was really touched. i just never had anyone do this for me before and neither have i done it for anyone before. that moment was beyond words la!

so after a while he left, and my mum returned and so went to buy rahul's books and all, then Mr Nice called again and asked me if i wanted to go to Geylang cause he had craving for cheng teng. (the pregnant attitude i won't ask) so yeahhs went there and got lost! and after 45 minutes, he came to my rescue! THANK GOD! ((: so yeahhs had his fill of cheng teng, then i had to leave cause was going for dinner with my family.

&so, thank you Mr Nice for today. You have no idea how happy you made me and you kinda momentarily lifted the sucky atmosphere around me after i cried buckets yesterday ((: thank you, like i said i'd just never be able to thank you enough!

((:

its true, you've moved too far away &you're beyond my reach.
but at least i know you're happy and loved by someone else already.
the painful truth.

this one's for you
Love can be a many splendored thing
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind,
It'll fool ya every time

The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See, you got no say at all

Now I was once a fool, it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder, but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name

Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keeps callin' and I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
This sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two

bye ((:

FRIENDSTER FEATURED FRIENDS ((:

2007-11-29T09:59:00.000-08:00

k damn bored right now, and this is probably the only entertaining thing to do at 2.01am! ((:
so my lucky friendster featured friends, read ok ((:

1. What do you think about your 2nd
featured friend.
A: [carisa] very very pretty, lucky cause she has really nice boyf!

2 .Do you like ur 1st featured friend?
A: [arisa] nope, don like her. love her ((:

3. How long have u been friends with
your 3rd featured friend?
A: [farah] two years.

4. Are you chatting with any of
your featured friends right now?
A: nope.

5. Is your 3rd featured friend close to
you?
A: [farah] used to be i guess?

6. How many of your featured friends
are in the same school as you?
A: i think only 1, peiru. arisa& kaiheng graduated? fadhil, let's not even get there =p

7. If you were to choose one of your
featured friends to be your
girlfriend/boyfriend, who would you
choose?
A: hmms, minus all the girls i am left with kaiheng and fadhil. kaiheng's attached? so not much of a choice there? hahas!

8. When was the last time you went
out with any of them?
A: arisa: recently to far east ((: carisa: been months. farah: been months. kaiheng- DECADES. peiru- been weeks. fadhil- been months? maybe 1 and half?

9. Among them, who did you last talked
to?
A: arisa on the phone, peiru on msn.

10. Who are your featured friends?
A: arisa, carisa, farah, kaiheng, peiru, fadhil

11. If you were to talk bad about
someone on your featured friend list,
who will it
be?
A: some things are better left unsaid.

12. Who knows you best among them?
A: arisa

13.Have you ever met any of
the featured friends parents before?
A: arisa's and farah's

14.Who is the last featured friend on
your profile?
A: muhd fadhil bin musa (promoting him to another spot soon ((:)

15. Any of your featured friends
attached?
A: arisa, carisa, kaiheng &fadhil

2007-11-28T21:40:00.000-08:00

Tuesday's science center dna workshop was boring to the max! thank god for nicole, jac, yongwen, desmond &veenee for being there to make things a little bit more fun! i mean besides the super cool machines i got to lay my hands on, and hearts that yongwen and i were making out of the agar plates that was supposedly supposed to be used for the experiments, everything else was boring especially the lecturer patrick. well the main highlight of tuesday was enchanted! ((: so after the dna workshop, went to jurong point and watched enchanted!

yeapps, typical fairytale with the normal happy endings which you don't really get to experience in reality. the movie was pretty damn good la, i think the lead actress (i swear i still don't know what her name is, someone can enlighten me) was so cute! hahas! the movie had sweet and simple message that we people still don't see.

then after the movie, went over to ravin's place for stayover! as usual stayovers spells out fun. x-box, teevee till late nights, falling asleep on the sofas! then yest, evening went to the airport to send lucky ass sunny off to london for a month! bitch, i'm still freaking jealous. ARGH.

today slack at home la ((:

tomorrow going to the airport again cause dearest karan is flying off to US for 4 months! DAMN! and again, its just him and friends. see, told you boys are lucky! mum wont even let me out of the hose for 4 days straight in a row! :(
&yes karan, i'll miss you very very very much and i'll try my best not to cry when i send you at the airport! HAHAS ((: mwacks!

sucky feeling?

2007-11-28T08:39:00.000-08:00

you know those moments when you sit &stone, thinking back about the times you shared with someone you like. like you know thinking about the times you guys laughed together over something silly and then soon you discover yourself smiling to yourself. but not long after, you realise that your cheeks are warm and your tears are rolling and you're choked to tears.

like you wish for those moments to come back, but you know they're far fetched and things just get worst every time, and we get further from the ones we like and eventually you just fade in their minds once they walk out of your life.

its that suffocating feeling you get when you like someone.

&yet as much as you try to get rid of those thoughts to end the suffocation, it fucking lingers.

this feeling sucks but soon you get used to it, and you feel strange when you don't feel it.

ahh, you won't get me

anyway this post is not meant to imply anything and its not particularly meant for anyone ((:

ANYWAY, my lucky cousin went to london for a freaking month to RELAX HIS MIND before NS! ahhhhhs! its so good to be a boy cause then you can travel alone with your friends! DAMN! :((

arisa nomura is pure love ((:

2007-11-26T05:57:00.000-08:00

ATTENTION!
I'M CRAVING FOR NEWTON CIRCUS SATAY, STINGRAY AND MEE GORENG RIGHT NOW :(( kind soul/souls that are willing to give me company, please text me ((:

today i FINALLY got to meet arisa ever since her Alevels ended! &yeahhs it felt so good to just see her again, the same old arisa with the biggest pineapple plantation in the world, the same cute and blur expressions she gives when she is shocked, the funny things she does, the ways she goes "oh you know, you know, you know" and then doesn't complete the rest of the sentence. HAHAS! adorable! and best of all, i got to meet her khiew zhi qiang as well that never fails to amuse me with his funny antics and high levels of creativity and imagination! for example,

arisa: oh you know, in facebook you can throw sheeps at people.
zhiqiang: huh then what happens when the other person open their profile, the sheep flies out of the screen and goes BAAAAAA? (with hand actions and facial expressions of shock!)

HAHAS ((: love them!

before meeting arisa &zhiqiang, met yongwen and accompanied her till the rest joined her for dinner!

i sold my white slide phone today and i was a little sad to part with the phone cause its quite a cool phone actually but it died on me! :( don't really like my new phone though, not my kind of phone but got it on impulse cause i couldn't possibly live without a phone. SIGHS.

absence makes the heart grow fonder.

2007-11-24T09:09:00.000-08:00

i feel so angry at myself now,
cause i'm a fucking good for nothing friend,
who can't help my friends when they are in need.

fuck

2007-11-23T10:04:00.000-08:00

i am c-r-u-s-h-e-d.

but its alright, see me SMILE ((:

someday we'll know

2007-11-22T21:08:00.000-08:00

super random pictures from my phone!

who says they're emo?

Love has absolutely no boundaries! hahahs!

the heels desmond paid for! ((:

the night of 128's class bbq! the rain was pouring. with just an umbrella and a paper plate, demond, jeremy and yeeyew made a fire this big. IN THE POURING RAIN AND HOWLING WIND mind you.

128's ah lians! ((:

&so 128's bbq was pretty alright i guess though the rain suddenly poured with no warning whatsoever. yet, the rain didn't quite dampen the atmosphere of the bbq and in fact it felt as though the rain kinda made things more fun with the guys actually trying their best to still barbecue chicken wings in the heavy rain! it's quite sad actually when we constantly hear that the class is going to be split up next year cause there's not enough of us to maintain the class. though 128 has like different cliques on normal school days, somehow when we meet up for class gatherings and stuff, we just blend in pretty well with each other and i know we still do love each other's company very much. its so hard to imagine a class without shalini, jeremy, desmond, yongwen, allison, nicole, dirah &jaclyn! damnit, hope the school keeps us as 228! &thanks yongwen for making the bbq possible with the countless emails you sent out to all of us just to get this organised! ((: love you truckloads! i'll help u plan the dec 10 bbq!

21st November ((: HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHUL!
he's 10 already, but he's still my baby! ((:

rahul's birthday was really really fun, more like my birthday, hahas cause i got to choose what i wanted to do for the day since he let me! HAHAS! so yeahhs, lunched at crystal jade with mummy, rahul &jag then came home and rahul's friends came over for some mini party. NOISY LIKE FUCK. then dinnered at spageddies in the evening with dad, cut cake when we got home. then the next day, went out for cafe cartell with ravin and shawn then played arcade, &&&&
GINNY THRASHED 3 GUYS AT DAYTONA AND EMERGED FIRST! YES!!! 1st! HAHAHS!

ooh and im getting a new phone soon, cause apparently my phone is quite critically ill now! mummy's in a good mood, must take advantage. still torn between what phone to get but most probably w910i ((: hoorays!

besides that the holidays have been pretty boring? i've been slacking at home with my brother every damn day wasting my life either in front of the laptop or drowning myself in countless dvd's. and not to mention, i go to bed at ard 3 or 4am and only wake up after 12.

ENCHANTED'S OUT! I WANNA WATCH ((:

you completely know the power that you have.

2007-11-22T10:32:00.000-08:00

I MISS YOU.
you're as busy as a bee.

the reason i don't blog anymore is cause i know, you don't read anymore.

2007-11-19T08:52:00.000-08:00

HELLO ((:

currently watching the american music awards for the third time in the day and i still can't get enough of rihanna&neyo's hate that i love you so performance and sugarlands collaboration with beyonce performing irreplaceable! i swear the performances just sweep me off my feet and bring me to a whole different world! and alicia keys was fucking hotsex too! her dancing was beyong words! &&&i cried when beyonce won the international award! HAHAS! ((:

SHE'S SO PRETTY ((:

those who havent watched it, quick quick go catch it kaes! this years AMA is a must watch! ((:

OH! and DESMOND IS GOD ((: hahas! i think i need to scream to the world at how nice my friends actually are. desmond, yongwen and i went to town on sat and i fell in love with this heels at far east but i was low with cash. AND DESMOND WAS SO SWEET! he insisted that i got it. like he said it would be an early bday gift and all! hahas! and in the end, i didnt accept it as a bday gift, just told him to help me get it first and i'll pay him back and he instantaneously passed me the money to get it! HAHAS! GOD!! i have nice lovely friends! ((: -beams!

ALRIGHT! many other things to blog about but for now this will do!
128's class bbq tmr! ((:

i used to think you were everything.
and perhaps i still do.

every reason to love them!

2007-11-15T06:50:00.000-08:00

so today jaclyn, nicole, jeremy and demond went to watch the movie bratz! and i was speaking to them online and here's what i got..

WITH JACLYN((:
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
IT WAS OMGGGG HELLL
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
heehees
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
the storyline can't get worse
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
and the lines are cheesy to the maxxxxxxx

NICOLE((:
Nicole says:
and we watched bratz!
Nicole says:
its the most traumatizing experience ever!
Nicole says:
omg dont watch it!
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
really?
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
why whywhy!
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
its not nice?!
Nicole says:
ya i am serious me desmond jac and jeremy groan throughout the whole movie!
Nicole says:
hahhasthe storyline was so cheesy omg!
Nicole says:
hahas i mean you can watch it yourself!
Nicole says:
its almost like a horror movie hahas
Nicole says:
hahhas i mean you can watch and find out for yourself!
Nicole says:
hahahas its damn horrible i swear omgggg i almost pulled all my hair out!

JEREMY((:
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
how was bratz!
mr fahrenheit- - says:
intellectually stimulating
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
ahahahhahahahahahah! really that bad?
mr fahrenheit- - says:
i would have rather been in church
mr fahrenheit- - says:
anyway when my butt itchy means got sickness coming up
mr fahrenheit- - says:
"SCRATCH SCRATCH"
mr fahrenheit- - says:
"SNIFF SNIFF"

DESMOND((: (phone conversation)
after watching the movie, i have learnt to appreciate the finer things in life like the birds humming, i came home and gave my dad a great big hug. -desmond.

now tell me you love them too! HAHAHS!
ok so no more bratz for me! i don wanna be traumatized!
but i still wanna watch stardust! )):

you're the best i ever had ((:

2007-11-13T09:00:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I find it so crazy. Cause we never had anything special between us from the start, or for that matter of fact, neither did we have a smooth sailing friendship between us from the start. Then explain to me why its still so hard to let go, why is it that after all this while that we've been apart, i still hold on strongly to the feelings i have for you? Its impossible, I can't go on like that. I can't go on holding on to something that's not meant to be. I don't know how do i tell you that I can't seem to part from you. You've become an addiction, my whole life revolves around you. Around my close friends, you're all I talk about. When i'm watching tv, i think about what you might be doing. Every night before i sleep, i read your messages in my phone. When i wake up every morning, I check my phone in hopes of receiving a message from you. I try my best to occupy myself with so many things, just trying to get you off my mind even if its just for a minute. I've really tried my best to break away from you. But i've never been good at it, i've just never been able to let go of people i love easily. It makes me miserable but strangely i've grown use to this feeling. I have a strange love hate relationship with you. Sometimes I thank god for letting me meet you in this lifetime cause you gave me a new lease of life. When i was troubled, and poured my problems out to you, you were never there to catch me fall, you shunned me away, but somehow you being around, just your presence helps me overcome everything. But then again, there are times that i hate you, times that i wish i never knew you cause of the mean things you did. And i know the reasons of all ur mean actions, you'd just like me to get over you soon enough so you don't feel burdened by my feelings towards you. If only you knew what its like to really love someone to an extent that you're willing to do just so much for that one person. People tell me you're mean, you're a bastard, you're an asshole, you're not worth it, I listen to them and agree with them at times, but deep down i know you're not. Deep down i know, you're just one of the nicest human beings around. Well, whatever the matter is, I'd just never want to lose you completely. I've lost you as someone i love, hopefully i don't lose you as a friend.

&as for now, memories of the laughter we shared, silly arguments we had and stuff we did are enough to keep me smiling. Thoughts of what could have been kill me sometimes.

~~iloveyou~~

KAES, sorry emo post entry. good night ((: breakfast tmr at 9 with jac, nicole and allison!

2007-11-12T07:52:00.000-08:00

I THINK MY 128 ROCKS SOCKS! ((: &so i love them!

2007-11-12T06:40:00.000-08:00

PART 1 ((:

POST-PROMO TIMETABLE.

when yj says intensive, they mean it.128 is probably the most attentive class in chem lectures!
AND AND i can testify to that!
WARNING!
THE FOLLOWING PICTURE MAY DISGUST VIEWER!
& so today peiru brought many many childhood memories back for me cause she bought the bubble tube and straw and so i was so happily blowing bublles away! kinda like no childhood kinda attitude right? but you know what, i wasn't alone! I HAD ACCOMPLICES!Dirah's SNOWMAN! ((:OH NO! poor dirah!
her snowman developed a tumour!Snowman's tumour became a shower cap!
&he went for a boob job!
RIP SNOWMAN.

there's still a prt 2 to this post, which will be up soon!

2007-11-10T08:46:00.000-08:00

Why am I hanging on
To such a memory
Too strong that I can't let go even though I'm trying
With the happiness
You're telling me when we will ever be what we used to be again

Now tell me what am I gonna do
Can't escape right 'cause I think of you
I close my eyes, I see your face, makes me alone
Just make me wanna take a breath and take it
It's a rush
Flashbacks dreaming about the both of us
Do I really wanna wake up
Oh no 'cause when I do you're not with me
That's when reality hits me
I get weak in the knees, can't function me
No, can't breathe
My friends see changes in me
Always be dreaming if once be
If still today be a part of a heart, always will be
Your beautiful soul and smile is all I need

My mind has been so tired
I have no words to say
I'm feelin' so frustrated
I wish I could walk away
So now what am I supposed to do
Without you here with me
I'm going in and out
I'm feelin up and down
So baby hear when I say

All of my life
I've waited for someone like you
I feel it when I look at you
In your eyes I see the truth
All of my life
I've spent day and day just loving you
And when you're away, I'm missing you
Now tell me what am I gonna do

All of my life
I'll give you everything you'll ever need
Always be a part of me
You're the reason that I breathe
All of my life
I've spent day and day just loving you
And when you're away, I keep missing you
Now tell me what am I gonna do

HELLO!

2007-11-10T00:36:00.000-08:00

Today morning, accompanied Allison to Macs to finally satisfy her craving of double cheeseburger and fries! Sat down and crapped for a bit before heading home! ANYWAY I AM HERE TO DECLARE MY LOVE FOR ALLISON KOAY! Something happened and i ended up crying and Allison told me to wait at the bus stop on the pretext that she's going to get water for herself, but when she came back to the bus stop, she was holding a rose! AHHHHHH! at that moment, i swear i just wanted to cry, i was so touched! She's so sweet! ((: I consider myself really lucky somehow cause I have so many people like her around that are always around to catch me when i fall. ((:

ALLISON & ME, with the rose ((:

(pardon my eyes, i just cried!)

Anyways people meet my new found love!

ANTONIO!

so for those of you that know me well enough, you would know that i am quite a sucker for cute babies! hahas! i love him. im gonna cry on monday when he goes back to US. :(

OKAY PEIRU I BLOGGED TWO POSTS FOR YOU! ((:

8th Nov Pictures! ((:

2007-11-10T00:15:00.000-08:00

Valencia Poh Swee Ting & me!Dad, Rahul, Uncle, Me

5 years and going strong!

You have no idea how much i love her.

FOOD ((:

I'm never leaving my camera unattended again!
KYLE SIM!

Mary, Shihui, me, Peiru

pretty pretty!

MARY'S THE BEST!

ASSHOLE!

2007-11-07T08:27:00.000-08:00

caught game plan on tuesday with MFBM!
the movie was hilarious and heartwrenching so you could often find me either laughing or crying. its about how a man realises that this girl that he has not known is his daughter for 8 years, finally realises that she is the best thing that has ever happened to him! YES JAG I DID THIS ON PURPOSE, TO SPOIL THE STORY FOR YOU! hahahs! ((:

there are so many movies i wanna watch!
-stardust (pruny says its nice, so shall trust her and go watch la)
-enchanted
-bratz!
-good luck chuck
-alvin &th chipmunks

today didn't go to school. in the morn, followed dad ang jag to mendaki, then had nasi lemak breakfast! came back chopped onions, diced tomatoes, made chilli paste, cut mutton, washed chicken, marinated chicken, washed the corridor, baked 4 different cakes, made agar-agar, changed bedsheets. TIRING LIKE FUCK! then slept from 3 to 6 plus? got up, went to buy dinner with peiru, ate, played whistling sparklers.

tomorrow, TEMPLE, finally after one year! hahahahs!

HAPPY DIWALI LOVES ((:

if only everything is easier done than said.

2007-11-06T02:59:00.000-08:00

Dear fisherboy,
I like you very very much.
Time has passed, you've left and gone on a separate path, yet here i am holding on to something that EVERYONE knows is not meant to be. I can no longer tell my friends that I'm crazy for you cause they're sick of telling me that I'm such a fool holding on to someone who has absolutely no feelings for me, someone who'll probably never see the good in me. But you see they don't understand that despite it all, you're probably the only one that makes me whole again, the one that makes me smile genuinely. You meet new people everyday, and you tell me how each of them like you as well. Im not jealous but it just makes me whole my feelings back further cause I wonder what makes me think that you're actually gonna choose me over the rest? HAHAS, fat hope. I don't know if you're attached or your heart's for another. Everyday, I long to hear from you either through a call, message or chat and when i finally gather enough courage to chat with you over on msn, somehow i just feel that i'm being an irritant and you just wanna get rid of me. I find every other reason to meet you sometimes. You just don't get what its like to be in my shoes. I'll never be able to tell you this perhaps but i'd just wish for you to know that you're someone that can really make me happy and i'd do anything i can to see you happy as well. i'll probably never be able to tell you that i like you and you're never going to have such feelings for me too, so well isn't it time i realise that we're not meant to be and letting go is the best option?

the mind says let go, the heart says hold on.
maybe i'm still wishing for a miracle.
~~Sometimes i wish i was her.~~

2007-11-03T03:06:00.000-07:00

I try to sleep
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
If you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this

Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go

I CUT MY HAIR TODAY ((:

2007-11-02T05:11:00.000-07:00

MEANS NOW GINNY HAPPY! :D

in your good times, i love you, same goes during the bad.

2007-11-01T10:28:00.000-07:00

NOVEMBER 2nd
the day 2 very very special people were born!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VALENCIA POH SWEE TING MY DEAREST DONKEY! ((:
you're 18 already and we're becoming really old donkeys! hahas! anyways hope you have a great day! can't wait to meet you on monday! much loves ((:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMRIK SINGH KHALON SUNNY! ((:
the cousin that makes life less boring! DOGBRAIN! you're 19 already, any plans to start behaving like one? hahas! lotsa love!

met up with mary today, a really last minute plan! was suppose to meet him like at 645pm but he only arrived around 745 cause the train tracks towards marina bay had some complications and so trains did not function for about one hr! oh my, the crowd at bishan mrt practically went crazy la. anyways caight up with mary, had heart to heart talks and i swear mary's so cute. was kinda teaching him how to bitchy and stuff but whenevr he tried, he was so damn gentle! hahas! then mary so nice, he walked me back, then waited for his bus to come at the bus stop and then peiru came to my hse to stay over and allison came to my place without any warning! like suddenly my room door opened and allison was there! hahahs! my house is like a hotel!

JAG, here's the lyrics ((:
Ek Din ..Ek Din Teri Raahon Mein
Baahoon Mein Panaahon Mein
Aungaa Khojaunga
Ek Din Tera Ho Jaunga

Yeh Dil To Na Keh Saka Yeh Baatein
Dil To Na Keh Saka

perhaps it happened again.
what made me think that maybe this time it was going to work?
HAHA! i'm a stupid hopeless fool!

stressed, confused, troubled

2007-10-31T08:01:00.000-07:00

&i thought about it the whole damn day!

THREE POSTS IN A DAY! ((: too free already!

anyways, i didn't go to school again today and not like i'm planning to in the next few days! so today morn, mum came into my room expressing much excitement that i didn't go to school so that i could help her bake diwali kuih! k la, seriously, initially i was pretty excited cause its fun to bake and everything plus jag (who skipped school too btw) decided to come over to help out, but i swear to god, baking kuih is fucking tiring and troublesome! jag and i were so fucking worn out just after an hour! so my mother took advantage of the fact that there were 5 people in the kitchen (jag, mummy, rahul, aunty as in maid and me) and so she decided that we make like 4 different cookies and she baked 600 pieces of each kuih cause apparently my aunt and uncle asked her to make for them too! yea, so jag, rahul and i were pretty shagged and we prayed real hard that the oven would like suddenly stop working or smth? and to our fucking surprise, THE OVEN OVERHEATED & JUST WENT OFF! wow, praise the lord man, god is great! so we had like 3 hrs break before the bloody repairman came and fixed it la! argh! but anyways jag is love la! he made baking kuih fun cause at least there was someone to sing and dance with me!!

tomorrow we're going to tidy up the house like put up curtains, tablecloth, pillow cushions, arrange evrything into place. ala, confirm another tiring day especially when u have a mum thats a neat and tidy freak! :(

The heart always yearns for something the head knows is wrong.

2007-10-31T05:25:00.001-07:00

First time I looked into your eyes.
Boy you looked right through me and played it cool,
but I knew you knew that cupid has hit me!

its me&you!

2007-10-30T21:35:00.000-07:00

Boy, no matter what we go through
You step up I'll step up too
It don't matter what the haters say
As long as you are my boo
And no matter how hard it gets
This love will have no regrets
As long as when we steppin on the dancefloor
It's me and you

Feel the rhythm of the beat, that's my heart
Cupid shot me with the arrow from the start
And you know that it's your love that's got me trapped
Everytime I try to leave you bring me back
So much water at times I cried a river
You dried my eyes and brought me back to laughter
And when I lay next to you I wanna wake up
And when I break up it's only to make up

When I step in a place, I feel my feet
Lifting from underneath
You grab my hands, spin me round
And right before I fall
You catch me and you say
Baby, it'll be okay
Just look into my eyes
And we will make another day

If we don't step up we'll loose our groove
So confused don't know which way to move
Pull my hand and let me know you feel me too
Look into my eyes and tell me baby I love you
Never get wet cuz I'll be your umbrella
We can make it through any kind of weather
You step up I'll step up boy
Cuz I'm tryin to be with you forever

Boy, no matter what we go through
You step up I'll step up too
It don't matter what the haters say
As long as you are my boo
And no matter how hard it gets
This love will have no regrets
As long as when we steppin on the dancefloor
It's me and you

yes YOU.

2007-10-30T06:53:00.000-07:00

lunched with peiru and fadhil today at pizza hut! craving finally satisfied! ((: HOORAYS!

bbq chicken supreme & thin crust hawaiian!my bestest fag enjoying his pizza!
BOUNCY BOUNCY SMACK SMACK!

after which peiru left for consumer probe (FUCKED UP PLACE) to submit surveys and so fadhil wanted to watch THEE SEEKER and i as usual being a very nice friend accompanied him thou its so not my kind of movie! AND I SWEAR TO GOD, THE MOVIE GOTTA GO! the movie made me so sleepy! so fantasy fantasy!

&thr's so many movies i wanna watch but i am broke! )): BUT, someone's getting his pay next week so i suppose i'll get treats! hahahahahhhahahahah! TAK TAU MALU!

cause this game of pretense is getting a lil bit too hard,
i don't think i can hold back these feelings anymore.

cause its a one-sided love.

2007-10-27T06:08:00.000-07:00

i got my dosage of happiness today ((:

2007-10-23T07:05:00.001-07:00

today, peiru &i woke up at 11, behaving like we've got no bloody school! hahas! &then allison called to say that she just woke up too and she decided to come to my place! so together, we had a nice hearty breakfast and were planning to go to school when peiru's teacher called to ask her why she wasnt in school! &so peiru lied she had diarrhoea and we had to then go to amk polyclinic to get her an MC! and we were kinda prepared to wait for hours but it took like 30 mins?! yeahhs, had lunch had new york new york! PEIRU'S RIBS WERE HUGE!! means now peiru fat! then walked into face shop and i fell in love with this red nail polish which is going to be mine tomorrow! ((: then on the way back, was suppose to meet my parents in serangoon but well fadhil called and so i decided to meet him instead! watched him eat KFC! super tempting but i've got good willpower! SMILES ((: &yea, i was glad to see him after a long time! then came back, and went swimming ALONE!

i'm happy today, but way happier than i am on every other day!

I can't explain this feeling
I think about you everyday
And even though we've moved on
It gets so hard to walk away.
i'll probably never let go.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY PEIRU ((:

2007-10-22T01:29:00.000-07:00

The birthday girl looking so contented with her new found friend! ((:

&my dearest and most wonderful girlfriend, i hope you had a great day yesterday!
arisa and i love you alotalot!!

RIGHT NOW! the camwhoring attitude gotta go!

the cake, chocolate addiction was GOOD ((:

dinner-ed at nydc! ((:

&i bought heels! REALLY HIGH HEELS! so darn happy though it was really expensive and my heart was really pain and i kept contemplating if i should really spend my money on them, but i still got them in the end, though my heart still aches la. I can't believe i just splurged my money on impulse like that for something that's not really a necessity. Sigh i shouldn't have paid,

~~$49.90~~
$9.9o ONLY!!!!

HEARTACHE? BULLSHIT! 9.90! WTF! WAH! was really fucking happy and the moment the salesgirl told me it was $9.90 only, arisa and peiru insisted that i got it! and the piece on display was the last piece and it was exactly my size! i swear, FATE! ((((((((:

GOODBYE LOVES ((:

Remember those few days?
when you said you were never letting go of me
&when i thought everything was so real
Boy those memories still haunt me today
how did i know, you were never planning to stay.
Its been some time &im still holding on,
hoping soon, I'll be able to let go
But just one thing before I go,
Something i've got to know,
Boy, did I ever mean anything to you?

&i fell for him as easily as you fall into bed each night.

so you stole my world.

2007-10-19T23:13:00.000-07:00

HELLO ((:
&so since the end of promos, i think i've gotten back my social life and i am enjoying life to the max. though, there's still school and the repeats have the suckiest timetable where they clean table &chairs in lecture theatres, or clean the growing algae on the yj tracks, amidst it all, there're many other things that happened and i feel overjoyed!

i'm kind of lazy to really elaborate on them, but well, PEIRU found me a job that overpays me sometimes for really easy jobs and besides, working with peiru just makes everything better, and when there are spaces, jeremy and shalini hop along to work too! ((: so celebrated jaspal's 24th birthday at my place, then there's dinner at botak jones that finally happened with jeremy, yongwen, peiru &desmond. my meeting with valencia after like a few very long months! and yeahhs, the rest of the days are mostly spend with peiru staying over at my place! ((:

PICTURES ((:

Jaspal's Birthday!

i bought him this birthday cake &surprised him &his eyes were filled with tears!

Dinner at botak jones!

the hot dog looks so disgusting!Jeremy loves to eat! he ate the long hot dog &lambchop!desmond's humongous burger!YONGWEN ((:

Outing with Valencia Poh Swee Ting!

there're many more pics, but i kinda accidentally deleted them &im too lazy too upload them from my camera again!

Random shots!

pornography in my phone.
&btw, i love her!peiru bought me those cute chocolates & the heart brownie! ((:

so you can probably see that i've really been getting my daily dosage of happiness everyday! ((: i've not been feeling this way in a long time but right now, my rock bottom phase has finally passed and i'm so lucky to have so many people around me!

MY LOVEBLE RAHUL, PEIRU, ARISA, ZHIQIANG, HONREN, ALLISON, YONGWEN, JEREMY, MY COUSINS, credits go out to all of you for making the past few days so special and i love you all tons! ((: cause you help me forget things, for the moment just so i feel lighter.

128 CLASS CHALET! ((: can't wait!

despite it all, i still wish you were here. i miss you so.

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you.

2007-10-13T02:47:00.000-07:00

I know I've been a fool since you've been gone
I'd better give it up and carry on
'Cause living in a dream of you and me
Is not the way my life should be
I don't want to cry a tear for you
So forgive me if I do

I'd do anything, I'd give you my world
I'd wait forever, to be your girl
Just call out my name, and I will be there
Just to show you how much I care

You promised yourself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here

you'll never understand.

2007-10-12T08:55:00.000-07:00

TO ALL MY MANY LOVELY MUSLIM FRIENDS OUT THERE,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA ((:

&so ravin and i were talking on the phone, when we started talking abt hari raya. and so i said wah lao i cant wait to go and visit my maly friends and eat the food and everything la, like the lontong, sate and what nots. so yea it went smth like that,

ginny: AHHH! i can't wait la, eat all the kuih-kuih, the rendang, the sambal. confirm damn sedap.
ravin: i can't la, i have to go to their house and ask, CIK ada sayur, tak nak makan rendang la, banyak lemak, ku dah gemuk la.
so he imagined the cik saying: "ala, takpe la, satu hari aje makan lemak, boleh la ambil sikit."
so he eats abit, then after a while the makcik goes,
cik: " ravin, cik kasi you hangbao ya"
ravin: oh cik, hongbao boleh kasi lebih la, HONGBAO TAKDE LEMAK APE!!"

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA!

&i hate home so much right now, its the most fucked up place to be. i feel like a jailbird. and my father's he's fucked up.

2007-10-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

i think my dad rocks! ((:
and now the night can pass thru in front of the telly with my best friends, doughnuts! ((:

& today at 4.30pm, the fucking difficult literature paper marked th end of th PROMOS! during th paper, i looked over at the clock every 10 minutes watching time tick by counting the minutes left to my freedom and i swear when sexy sng announced th end of the paper, i just wanted to hug him! hahas! im so damn effing elated that i no longer have to go back to ang mo kio ave 10 anymore! no more mugging in the macs every day till 10pm, surviving on unhealthy burgers and snacking on 60cents chipsmore packets and boring assorted bread from the nearby local bakery! &i love allison &wanqing cause if not for them i'd probably not have the motivation to study this hard ((:

THE MISERY IS OVER & I AM FINALLY FREE! well, just the only concern id if i'd actually be able to promote cause i kinda screwed some papers up pretty badly!

ANYWAY, promos aside, after lit paper, went to long john with peiru, allison, nicole &yongwen! haha &yongwen said something that made nicole laugh till she literally rolled on the floor! hahas! after that went to amk hub with peiru and then went to toa payoh to meet arisa! &arisa wasnt too happy to see me and peiru and abandoned us at macs and went to savour her duck rice :(( hahas.

&so now that promos are over i am ging to find myself a nice job that pays me enough cause i need to buy some things urgently! and to everyone out there, now that i am finally free, we can FINALLY GO OUT! just message me when u guys are free cause i'd be waiting for your messages! ((:

NO SCHOOL UNTIL THURSDAY! FUCKING SHIOK!
date me ((:

theres always madness in love, but reason in the madness.

ah yes, madness in love.
am testimony t that.

2007-10-08T04:57:00.000-07:00

PROMOS BEGIN IN 12 HOURS.
DANG.

&right now, i feel so tensed and afraid. i've studied everything with the exception of just one chapter that'll probably constitute 10% or less of the paper, yet i feel so unsafe and scared that i am going to screw up chem promos again. not just chem, every other paper, i cant really afford to screw promos up AGAIN.

please reassure me that im going to do fine this time round. &just reassure me that i'm not going to forget everything that i have studied.

i'm so fucking scared right now and im not sure if i'd be able to sleep.

2007-10-05T03:05:00.001-07:00

I LOVE YOU VERY VERY MUCH.

don't ask me why, but i really do.
i wish i wasn't this silly.

when someone you love hurts you, just cry a river, build a bridge, &walk ovr it.
-yongwen

2007-10-03T08:59:00.000-07:00

&i finally caught "I NOW PRONOUNCE YOU CHUCK AND LARRY!"
the movie was effing funny but i couldn't really laugh whole-heartedly cause my bloody bladder was fucking filled to the brim and any slight muscle movement would have cause me to pee right in my seat! i swear adam sandler's so cute! ((:

there's no guilt that the promos are a few days away and instead of studying i went for a movie. STRANGE!

AND I AM SO HAPPY TODAY! cause i FINALLY got my BODY SHOP PERFUME that i have been eyeing for such a bloody long time! and not just one bottle, i got TWO BOTTLES! (((((: thank you mfbm! i consider myself a lucky faghag! hahas ((:

anyway to those people that have been complaining that they have been tagging at my board and somehow the messages are not shown, I AM NOT DELETING THOSE TAGS KAY! my cbox just had some probs and i alr fixed it, so go on tagging! ((:

I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY!

2007-10-01T04:23:00.000-07:00

studied with shalini at bishan lib today!
was pretty productive in the beginning &somehow for tt very short span of time i felt like i was actually going somewhere with my education, until i lost concentration and my mind digressed to everything but studies! as usual, shalini isnt much help cause she herself was so distracted and all she did was think of food over and over again!
&her strong influence kinda got onto me and after a while i actually realised that i was fatigue-ing! &so badly needed food! so i ate AGAIN!

&so the promos are not very far away, yet my preparations are not even halfway done. gp paper tomorrow, hopefully time management does not become an issue. aft that, most prob heading down to bishan lib again la.

2007-09-30T09:45:00.000-07:00

there are some silly mistakes i made and i wish i was more sensitive &cautious at that time. i wish there were times when i would think before i talk instead of just being real rash and harsh. maybe sometimes i do carry my jokes too far and offend people unintentionally or maybe sometimes thou i do not mean for things to be sacarstic, maybe just maybe sometimes, i appear to pass sacarstic comments.

farah, i miss you.
i know u're never going to read this,
but i really miss you.

2007-09-28T09:42:00.000-07:00

i was so fucking pissed off,
but the concern you showed,
made every tear turn into a smile ((:

you got moodswings too.
today was my lucky day!

2007-09-28T03:46:00.001-07:00

KANINA FUCK CHEEBYE.
today i didn't go to school,
and fucking hell didnt study the whole day.
cheebye.

2007-09-27T08:25:00.001-07:00

HELLO!
I AM NOT GOING SCHOOL TOMORROW AGAIN ((:

YAY! ((:

i fucking hate school.

2007-09-27T06:49:00.000-07:00

now i finally understand the sudden pimple breakout that i've been experiencing the past few days! PERIOD!

studied with shalini, allison and yongwen at bishan cc today, and after a while fadhil joined us! i didn't accomplish much, i got such sucky and poor time management!

someone, watch it with me next tues after 1pm, please ((:

there's something abt you,
cause all i need is your presence to
give me the reason to smile,
make me believe that everyth's gna change,
make me feel brand new.
yes la, its YOU!

I DON WANNA GO SCHOOL TOMORROW!
HOW???

&i wanna know, what exactly is she suppose to be like?

2007-09-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

DARYLF. I MISS YOU PLENTY!!

(: im so happy today!

today was different from every other day surprisingly. the day flew by, even the 1 1/2 hour bio lesson did not feel draggy &boring. &aft sch i met MFBM! FINALLY! though its only been one week since we last met but i miss him like fuck la. thou he looked so stress upon meetin me and hardly spoke and didnt feel as much joy as me to meet after one week, i felt more than happy to be finally able to see him cause i thought he'd probably disappear after the last time we met. so i didnt complain abt his lack of enthusiasm. God answered a prayer! hahas. and maybe one more reason why i'm happy is cause,
IM NOT ATTENDING SCHOOL TOMORROW! ((:

yea, you really are.

2007-09-25T10:14:00.001-07:00

every morning, i wake up to find myself contemplating if i should attend or skip school.

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back
Why did you have to go?
So now I'm all alone,
you could have stayed
With you not around it's a little bit more then I can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you have to go away?
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it
What will it take to make you come back?

2007-09-24T09:40:00.000-07:00

today was such a fucking fucked up day, probably one of th lousiest day i've had all year. lack of sleep the previous night led to terrible moodswings &after half the day i got really moody, hungry & sleepy.

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

anyways, after school we celebrated zhiqiang's birthday at amk hub!((:
arisa, peiru, jieying, joel, kaiheng, honren, zhiqiang & i!
been such a long time since we all went out TOGETHER!
pepper lunch-ed, made SO MUCH NOISE in pepper lunch, bough zhiqiang a fruit cake, sang him a birthday song, cam-whored a little bit.
yea, so towards the end of the day, my moods were a little more controllable! ((:

&yet again today i have neglected my studies,
i really hope tt i'll start studying tmr.
SIGH!

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

2007-09-23T09:45:00.000-07:00

THIS IS FOR MY PEIRU! ((:

The person who tagged you : PEIRU!

The most memorable thing she has done for you : i've known her for a very short span of time &yet she has done so many things alr. the bestest would be when i needed a collar pin badly cause i had some test &i couldn't get it from anyone so she sneaked to the Go to get me one! ((: so sweet!

The most memorable words she said to you : she doesn't say it to me, but whenever she says it, i get amused, her sexy way of calling "HONREN" &when she says "but IF right!" hahas!

If she becomes your lover, you will? i will make sure arisa stays 10m away from her AT ALL TIMES!

If she is your lover, what improvement/s would you like to see her changing : she's so comel already!!

If she becomes your enemy, you will? that day will never come.

The reason why she becomes my enemy? SHE FLIRTS WITH ARISA! &they go out together and hold hands in town! GRRRR!

The most desire thing you would like to do for her: i wish i could get back her love for her so that she can live happily again! but since thats rather impossible, for now i wish i could financially support all her materialistic needs &buy her all the accesories, bags, belts, tops, shorts she wants!

Your overall impression of her: the bestest girlfriend anyone could wish for, truly a gem!

2007-09-23T03:03:00.000-07:00

hi today i woke up thinking about you

&the rest of the day too.

2007-09-22T01:42:00.000-07:00

SCORCHING HOT SUN,
HUNGER PANGS,
A HEAVY SHOULDER BAG,
BODY FATIGUE,
CONSTANT SELF-REMINDER TT THE PROMOS ARE NEARING,
& ORGANIC CHEM TROUBLES,

not exactly the kind of saturday you would wish for.
shalini &i whined all morning&afternn.
haha, but shalini is so freaking cute &no matter how fucked up the day, she salvages it.
LOVE MY SHALU ((:

arisa tagged me &now i have to waste 5 mins of my life doing this!

The person who tagged you : ARISA ((:

The most memorable thing she has done for you : oh thr's many, i can't just name one. listening to my problems till late at night, sending me sweet cheer up msges, writing me cards or buying small things to cheer me up. the most memorable by far, when i was down & had cravings for secret recipe cake, & after jap class she appeared at my door to deliver my cake &make me smile! ((: & on another occassion when she bought me mini muffins! love her like fuck!

The most memorable words she said to you : "ginny, though you keep saying you are cute &tell me that i am not cute, i still love you alot. soplease smile."-this touched my heart in a million&one ways!

If she becomes your lover, you will? KILL ZHIQIANG! ((:

If she is your lover, what improvement/s would you like to see her changing : i love her for who she is already ((:

If she becomes your enemy, you will? throw darts, rotten tomatoes & cool cucumbers at her face!

The reason why she becomes my enemy? SHE HOLD PEIPEI'S HAND AGAIN!

The most desire thing you would like to do for her: to prove to her how truly special she is &make her realise that she's beautiful both inside &outside, cause till today she doesn't know.

Your overall impression of her: SO COMEL & BLUR!

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for :
1. YOU!
2. for carisa, constance, xinying, valencia & shihui to spend the day at sh's condo!
3. a trip to the zoo with close friends or someone special! (always wanted this)
4. to celebrate it at the bbq pit near my hse with WILDCATS &order kfc &play sparklers again ((:
5. MONEY!

How do you think people around you feel about you : a couple of them truly value me, a couple of them think im a good pasttime for them

The character you love about yourself : my ability to forgive &forget.

On the contrary, what do you hate about yourself : my physical appearance.

The most ideal person you would like to be with : i dig guys with a good sense of humour! besides that nice broad shoulders will do! &anyone tt'll accept me for the person i am?

What do you want to say to your loved ones : I LOVE YOU TOO!

Pass this quiz to 9 friends whom you wish to know how they feel about you :
1. arisa ((: ( haha, its called backtagging! now you have to tell me what u feel abt me)
2. PEI PEI! (now you have to do it for me &arisa)
3. fadhil ( since you're a school dropout &you're rather free, i'm sure u cld spare some time!)
4. YONGWEN!
5. carisa ( i know you really hate stuff like that!)
6. valencia (you hate this too! TOO BAD, do it for me)
7. VALERIE HAN! (i miss you!)
8. MEISY! ((:
9. shihui (she doesnt have a blog, so she'll email it to me! hahas)

When was the last time you chatted with #3 : yesterday.

What kind of music does #8 like : i think nice soothing love songs?

Does #6 has any siblings : YES! younger sis&bro!

Will you woo #3 : hmms, tried & failed? HAHA!

How about #7 : yea, why not!

Is #4 single : should be.

Surname of #5 : CHOW KAR MUN!

Nickname of #1 : nothing yet, but how abt blur like fuck?

What's the hobby for #5 : SHOPPING!

Do #5 and 9 get along well : yes! ((: they're fellow toiletgangers!

Where is #3 studying at : OH! he just dropped out of school! DROPOUT ((:

Have you tried develop feelings for #1: i know she has developed feelings for me! ((:

Where does #9 live : thomson

What colour does #4 dislike : red, white &navy blue! LOL!

Is #1 and 3 best friends : nope, prob acquaintances. &they share the same bday!

Does #7 likes #2 : nope!

How do you know #2 : through honren! &that's the best thing hr has ever done for me!

Does #5 owns a pet : nope!

DONE ((: those whom i've tagged, please do it ((:
be a sport!

Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand

2007-09-21T07:04:00.000-07:00

this week has really been bad. something has really been affecting me &due to that i haven't quite been on form. i've suddenly really lost this drive to go back to school, like this sudden feeling whr sch has loss ALL meaning. &every morning i drag my corpse outta bed. then i've been skipping lessons cause im unable to concentrate and stuff & so many teachers have been talking to me. first ms chua, then ms tan, then ms ng. &they all seem to knw the reason why im being like that.

&ms tan's really nice ((:

THE CAR PLATE ((: so pretty!

anw i am a lark today because i got my dose of estacsy!
though it only lasted for a while, but i was glad.
God's been so good to me!
thank YOU ((:
go figure!

All the thoughts lead back to you

2007-09-20T11:09:00.000-07:00

i said 3 days.
today is the 3rd day
&im not feeling anything,
so this is goodbye.
its not you, its just me.

school's been getting the better of me. the promos are in the corner & of all times, i've actually lost the momentum to study when the promos are like f-ing 2 weeks away. im not even halfway thru my preparations. &even when i do actually put myself to study, all i do is chem and that too, after reading 5 pages of the notes, i feel distracted and digress to something else more appealing.

if i could press rewind,
lets pause at the day whr u made everything so special,
now i have to live with memories of the yesterdays that help me pull through today.

2007-09-19T02:45:00.000-07:00

if you like someone, let them go, if they're meant to be yours, they're bound to return.

have you ever spared a thought about me?
when you walked away just now, didn't even for once did your heart tell you to stop & turn back.
you treat me like trash.
everytime we meet you leave me crying, why do you do this to me?
really, what have i ever done to you.

you can't lose what you never had.
truth is, i never had you.

so then why am i so afraid of losing you the friend in you?
why do i still find means and ways to hold on to you?

i've never been of much importance in anyone's life,
what made me think i was important for you.

whats wrong with me?
someone hold me & tell me i am not alone please.
someone just tell me you actually need me & you value me.

2007-09-18T08:46:00.001-07:00

i just saw smth i wish i hadn't.
screw you.

2007-09-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

today was a great day ((:
God really does listen, thank you God.

my favourite apple tree!

It's every little thing you do
That makes me fall in love with you
There isn't a way that I can show you
Ever since I've come to know you
It's every little thing you say
That makes me wanna feel this
There's not a thing that I can point to
'Cause it's every little thing you do

Is it your smile or your laugh or your heart?
Does it really matter why I love you?
Anywhere there's a crowd, you stand out
Can't you see why they can't ignore you
If you wanna know
Why I can't let go
Let me explain to you
That every little dream comes true
With every little thing you do

2007-09-17T08:48:00.000-07:00

hello 128, here's the farewell gift we got fadhil ((:

lets hope he doesn't forget us after eating all the muffins kae? hahas ((:

ooh, & thanks to my mum, i got myself the topshop wallet that i was eyeing!

No if you're ever wondering
About the way I'm feeling
Well, there ain't no question
Just to be around you is a blessing.
Just as cliched as it seems,
when i count my blessings, i count you twice,
cause from the time i met you,
my life changed...for the better.
you brightened up my life.

2007-09-16T01:10:00.000-07:00

Did I ever do anything that was this cruel to you?
Did I ever make you wonder who was standing in the room?
You made yourself look perfect in everyway
& made me fall deeper every other day
Your plan has worked so now you can just walk away
All along, there was a stranger in my life.

&i realised, despite knowing you,
truth is, i never knew you.

last night, i ALMOST fainted! my new piercing kinda dropped off, so as my mum was trying to put it back on for me, i think she kinda hit a nerve that she wasn't suppose to and suddenly i turned so pale and my legs grew so weak and i just collapsed on the floor. i was still conscious and could hear my mum screaming for my dad, cousin and brother, but i was just too weak i guess. my mum panicked till she cried, like she felt really scared that her daughter was going to die cause of a piercing! haha! she's so cute &hell do i love her alot. yea, so now my ear is badly infected but that doesn't mean i'm going to let the hole close. wait till i'm on the verge of losing my ear!

ARGH! im not studying! :((

SHOP TILL YOU DROP ((:

2007-09-15T04:39:00.000-07:00

gp paper 1 test was a killer! the questions were annoyingly difficult & my lack of general knowledge on many issues left me crossing out almost every other option that in the end, i amazingly found myself with only 2 out of 12 questions left to consider. anyhows, i have come to realise that my time management sucks as i scribbled a three-line concluding paragraph!

anyway, after the torturous gp paper (thank god i didn't have to stay for paper 2, kinda pitited those that had to) met kaiheng & off we headed town where we later met arisa. & later on joel joined us! KFC-ed and then the hunt for present began! ZHIQIANG'S & CYNTHIA'S BIRTHDAY PRESENTS! so we started off from fareast, to wisma, to taka, to paragon, to heeren, to cinelesure, back to paragon and then back to fareast! HAHAS! we contemplated over many gifts but well we finally got what we initially decided from the very start of our journey!

the dress kaiheng bought for cynthia!
the dress and the birthday girl are gonna compliment one another ((:

arisa and i had had LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT with this dress,
and thou it took alot of time, we finally managed to convince kaiheng tt it was nice!
& he got her a carplate too! when i collect it on wed, will upload its pic!
kaiheng's sucha sweet boyfriend!

too bad i can't upload what we got zqq cause he'll see it if i post it, so too bad! zqq will have to wait patiently!

arisa feeling so content with her free lollipop!

OH! &i met WANRONG today, after a really really long time! NEH NEH! ((:

yea, the impending guilt of me being in town when its only 2 weeks away from promos is on the verge of killing me & as sleepy and tired as i really am, i shall forego my naptime and bury myself straight into organic chem! ((:

WHERE'S PEIRU?
means peiru missed out ALL the fun we had! HAHA!

Now i'm missing you.

2007-09-14T10:30:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHA!

today, in school, time literally crawled. besides the laughter, chit-chat sessions & jokes we crack as a class, &most importantly the fact that tan su linn has been in an exceptionally fantastic mood, there's still an emptiness(i probably know the reason why) &right now, i just cannot wait for the term to get over and done with. just a few more weeks, but it feels as though its taking forever.

yet, i wish the end of school year doesn't come to an end soon causethen it would mean that arisa, zhiqiang, kaiheng, joel and hon ren would be leaving soon & next year, i'm gonna have to do school without them. sigh, but well that's only if i promote right? DOUBLE SIGH!

sucks, and not like monday to friday isn't already bad enough, teachers still find the need to call us back on saturdays to sit for paper 1 and paper 2 tests. ARGH. after the test, meeting up with kaiheng, arisa & joel and i'm finally getting to go town ((: the bestest thing that's probably happening this week.

&i'm letting go of something special,
something that i can never have again.
its not gonna be easy.

2007-09-13T09:10:00.000-07:00

& CHAD, DON'T YOU DARE LOOK DOWN ON MY GUTS EVER AGAIN! ((:
see, i warned you and reminded you perpetually that im really daring, but you chose to believe that you knew girls well enough, & they talk only with no action!
THINK AGAIN! ((:
yay! im gna get salmon and mushroom pasta!

the latest nano, HOTSEX!

2007-09-12T08:01:00.001-07:00

today, i went to my dad's office at tanjong pagar at ard 6 plus & in case you haven't watched the news and updated yourself, that area experienced tremors today! & i was on the 13th floor with my dad and some of his colleagues and we felt the ground under us shake! THE HORRORS I HAD! my goodness! so yea we had to evacuate the building and everything, i must say a pretty exciting experience?

& then met karan for dinner at j8 and on the way back, i had a very nasty experience. im pretty freaked out now and so are my parents, so we made a police report. i'm still trembling at the fact that i had 2 drunk middle aged indian man follow me and i had to hide at the 3rd level of some block near my place until they left before returning home. scary like fuck. thank god desmond and mary spoke to me while i was in hiding at the 3rd level!

pretty eventful day right?

I LOVE MUTTONS ((:

&I'm gonna miss you
like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life

2007-09-11T08:37:00.000-07:00

(to those that read the earlier post where i vented like ALOT of anger out, i've decided to curb my anger a little more by editing it and making it less obvious. & for those who tagged, i'm sorry but i deleted the tags.)

& this is NOT for farah. thankyou.
& the rest don't fucking jump into conclusions and think its for anyone of you.

hello loved ones, if you feel down and under, and you feel like you need to hurt someone, you actually need someone to vent out all your anger on, you know just to make yourself feel better by the end of the day, don't hesitate, take a queue number and stand in line, cause i'm an idiot. when i love someone or when i have someone thats close to my heart, i let the person vent everything out on me. so why not be the next?

i'm so fucking tired of pleasing people.
i'm so fucking tired of always being the one in the wrong, the one that apologises & always trying to be the one that straightens everything out.

so from today, here it is, unless i realise i really make a mistake, then obviously i'd genuinely be apologetic and stuff but if i feel that you're getting up my nerves, you're taking advantage of my niceness, you're ALWAYS being unreasonable, then you know,
you can jolly well go fuck a spider.

&yes i have come to realise that i'm seriously of no importance to you. they say, you don't know what you've got until you lose it. if you have a heart, somewhere in there, i hope you'll realise how much you mean to me one day.

2007-09-09T07:02:00.000-07:00

SUNDAY NIGHT ALREADY!
& its back to school like tomorrow morning. DANG.

anyway the last few days of the holidays have been pretty rejuvenating. as long as i am away from the school compound, i think the day is very well-spent even if it being at home the whole day, rotting with my mum. thank god my mum hasn't been much of a pain lately. &i've got up with so much sleep, that if tomorrow i go to school and complain i'm tired, feel free to slap me ((:

saturday evening and night was the sex.
in the evening, dined with allison at amk park macs. ALLISON'S SO SO CUTE! as she was relating her troubles to me, trying her best to confide in me, all i could do was laugh as she related her problems cause her facial experssions were priceless. like i was suppose to be serious and try to help her out, but i couldn't and i just burst out laughing at everything she said. rather insensitive of me, but i really couldn't help it! then she was so sweet, cause she walked me all the way back home cause she said she enjoyed my company! YAY! i love having people walk me back!

then once she left, around 11plus went down to meet sunny's soccer guys along with jag and karan. &thou i vowed and swore not to touch a drop of liquor, i must say the temptation took over and i left the void deck all high and drunk! chivas and bacardi, really not a good combination. haha, and sunny had a difficult time bringing me home! hopeless drunkard!

today morning, i could hardly get up, had a splitting headache but as promised i went down to eton playhse to help fel finish painting. came back around 2, literally DIED on bed. i still have a hangover cause i really feel like puking and my head hurts like fuck right now.

& then again, life isn't always good right.
so there's this motherfucker who has gained interest in my life and has been creating hell for me making me look like some fucking desperate lovergirl. cheebye la this people, fucking free. &those who have been victims of this person's acts, its up to you if you're gg to trust me cause i don't give a fuck anymore.

&you have been so cold recently.

for those that bothered to read thru the long post, here's a treat for you ((:

2007-09-08T10:14:00.000-07:00

Caged without a key
Everyone comes to stare at me
With so much joy and rivalry
They don't know how I feel inside
Through my smile I cry
They don't know what they're doing to me

We've played enough games by now,
Aren't you tired already?
I need a breather from you.

2007-09-08T01:55:00.001-07:00

dinner with allison at amk park macs later.

bio now.

2007-09-07T10:58:00.002-07:00

hello new found friend ((: thanks for the tag. yea, it was nice meeting you for the very first time and i'm sorry for putting you in a spot when i literally broke down in front of you. but thanks for listening. ((:

ONCE,
& you felt it already.
EVERY OTHER fucking TIME,
& yet you never felt it.

&i really wanna let go of you.

STUDY STUDY STUDY!
so yea,
from 10th Sept,
i'm gonna have,
22days to GP paper
29 days to chem paper
30 days to maths
31 days to bio & lit

ARGH!

2007-09-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

you'll probably never understand the joy i feel around you.

its something i can never tell you.

you'll probably never understand the pain when you remind me its going to end soon.
its something you might not feel.

i don't wanna lose you.

& i present the cutest rat ever ((:

2007-09-05T07:49:00.001-07:00

the lyrics on my blog are just not lyrics.
they do have meanings behind them.

& just cause they're not meant for you,
you don't have to go all sore about it.

i don't give a fuck abt what u say.

2007-09-04T17:55:00.000-07:00

im envious.

And you can't lose what you never had

I don't understand why I feel sad

Well I can't let go

No, I cant let go of you

You're holding me back without even trying to.

I can't let go

I can't move on from the past

Without lifting a finger you're holding me back.

So many things I wanna know the answers to

Wish I could press rewind

And rewrite every line

To the story of me and you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried

To get you out my mind

But it don't get no better

As each day goes by

And I'm lost and confused

I've got nothin to lose
P.S. I'm still not over you.

2007-09-01T18:01:00.000-07:00

thinking back about the past wasn't something i expected myself to be doing right now, but eversince yest when i poured out 1/4 of my lifestory, i suddenly feel an overwhelming feeling of anger and everything negative that you can possibly think off. i don't regret anything i did in the name of love, but it just hurts to know that i was never taken seriously, i was your tool. & he says he's sorry, as though its going to give me back what i have lost, as though its gonna make everything right again.

i've been used. umpteen times. by YOU.

6 years.

2007-08-31T05:56:00.000-07:00

I LOVE JAG.
he bought me char kway teow today when i called him and whined about how much i have a craving for it!
I THINK JAG IS HOT, come one, he's not just hot..
BABY, YOU'RE FUCKING HOT! haha!

& so mundane school life has taken its toll on me and i feel like i have lost the drive to study a really long time ago. suddenly i really don't know why i'm still here, suddenly it feels like i realise that retaining hasn't brought me anywhere and i should get out of here asap cause i know there are other opportunities out there for me. yet, despite knowing it all, i'm not ready to leave, not now at least. im not willing to leave behind somethings yet, or rather some people.

please mum & dad, don't force me into this.
less than 2 weeks left for me to convince them to make me stay, and the only way out is for me to study, show them that im studying real hard here.

i'd do anything to make sure i stay.

things i really really MUST get my hands on soon once i clear my $100 debt with carisa and get more allowance to splurge on myself.
*pink adidas bottle.
*body shop lime green bottle perfume.
*that piercing i wanna get done on my ear.
there's more but these 3 are the burning desires right now!

cause when you're around,
i find myself smiling for no reason all the time.
what's so special about you?

2007-08-29T02:34:00.001-07:00

some days I make it through & then there's nights that never end.

i try to.....
its futile nevertheless.

thank god i found you,
you make life so much brighter.

2007-08-20T08:22:00.000-07:00

"I want my girlfriend to be fat and ugly,
so that no other guy will take her away from me"

&eversince peiru told me about her heart wrenching yet warm, romantic and sweet fairytale she experienced a few years back, i've been caught thinking alot. Yes, those are the words every not-so-good-looking girl would love to hear. guys like that are simply priceless and hard to get by cause right now, many guys, whether they are good looking or NOT, often look for pretty charming girls. well lets give them the benefit of the doubt that they really do love the girls alright, but besides that, the girls also mostly serve as a showpiece for his friends. cause when she walks by, he want his friends to go, "wow, thats a good catch."

but well, i don't really blame guys cause its human nature to find a partner thats super good looking. i am guilty of that too.

but somehow, i feel so touched by what peiru's ex said. its just that those words said can make anyone feel so special. the things he did for her, the things he said to her is omething every girl would love to experience in life at least once.

not many guys are like him today and i read somewhere,
"a girl can like a fat guy but a guy can never like a fat girl"

exactly my point, which explains my fate.

my fate lies at just staing at the guy im head over heels for now.
all i can do is stand by the side and secretly fall deeper into him every single moment.
& deny the fact that i love him every other time.

beyond that, i know i stand no where now.

i wish the guys i loved could look deeper into me, i wish they could see that i would do anything to make them happy, i wish they would know, that when i say i love you, i mean it.

you can fill me up, you can tear me apart.

oh wells, anyway, i m back to maths now ((:
goodbye people.

2007-08-16T04:20:00.000-07:00

today i did something quite bad? had initial thoughts of skipping school cause i was really tired and i could barely get myself off bed in the morn, so slept longer till about 1o plus. got up, &i realised that it was really boring at home cause my mum was too busy entertaining her clients and had no time for me. so in the end, i got dressed in my school uni, told my mum i was going to school but ended up in arisa's house.

its called truancy. im not proud of it, i feel bad actually lying to my mum.
but well, first and last time, i promise ((:

watched this japanese drama at her place and it kinda gotme moved so im gonna beg her to lend it to me once her mum is done. besides that, got some homework done.

after that met mummy at ntuc and i swear i tool full advantage of the fact that i was out with her cause i bought everything that i had my eyes on. the cereals, snacks, bottled drinks, twiggies, chocolates. now whoever comes to my place will have alot of food to feast on!

what i read really did hurt me bad. cause it came from you.
now i know why.

Baby, you have become my addiction
I'm so strung out on you

i typed his in 2 mins 05 secs ((: