i am sorry for treating you like my punching bag, i'm sorry for calling you those names, i'm sorry for behaving like such a bitch today. i'm really sorry. well, the problem with me when i'm depressed, i tend to vent it out on people that are close to me. i tend to say things that i know will hurt them. i know i said that i was being mean cause i was taking revenge on what you did but i hope you know that really isn't the case. i just need you to understand me, thats it. i need you to be the one that there's for me. i just need you to be more patient with me. i know its really hard for you to hear all this from me, but i just need your support right now. i really don't know what i want either. i just wanted to be that person that could make you smile, that could make you love. i wanted to feel loved again cause you had the ability to make me feel brand new again. when i'm with you, i feel an overwhelming sense of joy. you really made me and then when you broke me, i just couldn't believe that the same person who could make me so happy, could just crash everything in just a moment. no, i'm not angry with you and you still mean alot more to me. nothing has changed and i still do feel very very happy around you and i look forward to seeing you everyday. when i finally see you in the mornings, i just suddenly feel irritated cause i think of how you can't be mine and that just spoils it all. but at the same time you're a really important friend. i think the biggest mistake i made was to bring love into our friendship, cause i know now i've made things difficult for not only myself but also you. well, i may appear to be mature in thoughts and all, but seriously i am a kid inside. i am stubborn and i get irritated when i don't get what i want. i tend to throw my temper around. well i know i'm being really unfair to you and i don't blame you if you would want to avoid me for the time being but things is, that's not going to help me cause it's only going to make me miss you more. it's going to make me think of you more. i'm really sorry for all the trouble that i have caused you and for hurting you with the things i've said. i promise you tomorrow will be a better day.
i am sorry ((: please don't be angry with me. best friends don't turn their backs on one another in times of need, and i need you right now. i'm sorry *smiles*