i hate days like that, seriously, when all i do is stay at home, try to study, watch tv and lie down. then i hate it more when i start tearing and sympathising with myself when i think about how unworthy i am. it makes me wonder real hard, how come i can never be happy for long, how come life is this bad. and then i remind myself of all the happy things but it doesnt work. i play with my brother and try to get things off, but soon i get annoyed and start screaming at him.

i know exactly why i am feeling this way.

and there are so many questions i want to ask. its none of my business but i wanna know.

i want to know. sigh

life is so low right now. so empty.

anyway, farah said this,

love,
Its when u shed tears and still you care for him.
Its when he ignores you and you still long for him.
Its when he begins to love another and yet u still smile and say I'm happy for you.

so true right?

studying with arisa and mary tomorrow.

:( life's so complicated,
i'm so sick and tired of how i've been feeling lately.

at least recently there's been something to look forward to.
though for a short while, i smile and laugh genuinely at that time.