sucky feeling?

you know those moments when you sit &stone, thinking back about the times you shared with someone you like. like you know thinking about the times you guys laughed together over something silly and then soon you discover yourself smiling to yourself. but not long after, you realise that your cheeks are warm and your tears are rolling and you're choked to tears.

like you wish for those moments to come back, but you know they're far fetched and things just get worst every time, and we get further from the ones we like and eventually you just fade in their minds once they walk out of your life.

its that suffocating feeling you get when you like someone.

&yet as much as you try to get rid of those thoughts to end the suffocation, it fucking lingers.

this feeling sucks but soon you get used to it, and you feel strange when you don't feel it.

ahh, you won't get me

anyway this post is not meant to imply anything and its not particularly meant for anyone ((:

ANYWAY, my lucky cousin went to london for a freaking month to RELAX HIS MIND before NS! ahhhhhs! its so good to be a boy cause then you can travel alone with your friends! DAMN! :((