Wednesday, January 16, 2008

DEAREST ARISA (:


Today, I was in my room talking to Des when my maid knocked on my room door. When i opened, she handed me a fairprice bag & the picture above reveals what I saw. The first thing I asked my aunty was "Who passed you this &where is she now?" I looked around but Arisa was nowhere to be seen. Arisa passed the cake to my aunty at the gate and left. I don't blame her for that.

I am sorry Arisa, sorry for everything. Sometimes, I just don't know what I'm so caught up with that i end up neglecting the people around me. I know you've been asking me to come over to your place time and again since my birthday, but i've just been spending too much time with other people, not thinking about you. I never meant for things to be this way and like what you said in your blog I am not mad at you for being a bad friend. You've NEVER been a bad friend in my eyes. if anyone is to be mad, then it should be you, cause seriously i've been a bitch. i don't know whats happening to me but i've really changed. i've become such an ungrateful and selfish person. you're not the first person's that's mad at me. you're not the first person thats walked away from me. sometimes i feel afraid when friends get too close to me, cause i've this history of always hurting the people that are close to me. i'm seriously not the kind of friend that anyone would like to keep for long. i never have the intentions to hurt the people around me but unconsciously i always seem to.

well to everyone out there, if you're my friend, dont have to high expectations from me, dont always think that i can be the one that sets everything right, don confide in me too much cause at the end of the day, i always seem to let everyone down.

I'm sorry Arisa. I just hope for things to be better and i will try to make things better. I just need you to understand that im really having problems at home. my mother has really been unreasonable and she's been after me everyday. she doesn't let me do anything, i currently have no freedom at home. She just wants me to study study study. after school, i cant even hang out with my friends cause at 5.30 she starts calling me over and over.

but thanks arisa, kaiheng &honren for the cake.
i appreciate the effort and the cake's really nice (:
i'm just sorry for being a fucking bitch.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

The bestest birthday ever ((:

((: nineTEEN (:HAPPY BIRTHDAY GINNY & SONI (:doesn't it look like he's the one that's turning 19?thanks kyle ((:
&thanks carisa, constance, daryl, guohua meeting up! (:
the bestest wishes granted, the bestest gifts received (:
remember the wishlist i made in the previous post?
here's how it looks like now ((:
-topshop voucher ((: YONGWEN (:
- silver/ black clutches ((: VALENCIA & COONIE(:
- BAGS ((:
- swatch watch ((: MUMMY&DADDY (:
- anklet ((:
- burberry brit perfume ((: ROHAN(:
- guess wallet ((: ALLISON (:
& dorothy perkins voucher ((: CARISA & GUOHUA (:

THANK YOU EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU FOR MAKING THIS 19th so beautiful! (:
thank you mummy &daddy for the birthday party, thank you relatives for coming over, thank you everyone for all the birthday wishes, thank you to the above-mentioned people for showering me with such expensive gifts, thank you to those who spend the day with me (:

much love, hugs and kisses to everyone of you (:

Friday, January 11, 2008

ATTENTION!

HELLO FRIENDS((:
IF ANY OF YOU WERE INTENDING TO BUY ME THE BURBERRY BRIT PERFUME,
THEN PLEASE DON'T,
CAUSE SOMEONE ELSE ALREADY GOT IT FOR ME (((:


THANK YOU ROHAN ((:

Monday, January 7, 2008

if you think you made my 2007 special, read on ((:

one year's come. one year's gone.
how time just walks past you and in the blink of an eye, its 2008.
do we look forward and hope for a better year, or reminisce the moments we had in 2007.

well, for me 2007 has probably been the most insignificant year up-to-date. in one word, 2007 was "mundane". 2007 has been different. in '07 alone, my emotions have been through a rollercoaster ride and i've been left heart wrenched time &again. so many things happened in just this year and they all happened so fast. friends made, friends lost, heart-breaks, sucky grades. i gave people my everything this year, only to have them walking out of me as and when they wanted to. the ones that i thought were true, appeared to be the ones that were never around. the one best friend i had, couldn't accept my flaws and walked out on me. the others, took me on a joyride.

2007's been a little upsetting &a little regretful.

but at the same time, 2007's been a little beautiful ((:
A BIG THANK YOU TO;
toiletgang: you guys are never forgotten though we seldon meet. every single one of you still mean alot to me despite the fact that we have moved on with lives! hopefully we meet up soon ok (:

128: fadhil shalini yongwen allison jaclyn nicole jeremy desmond nadirah yeeyew wanqing veenee. without you guys lectures &tutorials would have really been damn dreadful. fortunately, 128 had a bunch of clowns that made lessons a little more enjoyable and bearable. seriously, i pity all the teachers that had to put up with our extreme behaviors but all in all, i'm really glad that i met such fine people like all of you. ((:

fadhil ((: you're probably the closest friend i had in 128 cause of the amount of time we spent together watching god-knows-how-many-movies &th usual hangouts we had everyday after school. its been one hell of a crazy half year with you and i must say we've been through alot. the things we both did to annoy one another &i'll never forget the one time you abandoned me in town. hahas ((: but well, you made the first half of the year fly so quickly. thanks for being there for me when i needed someone, thanks for being th bestest friend anyone could ask for ((: now, i still sometimes wish that you were around school to make the environment less dull, but its impossible. hopefully, you don't disappear this year ((:

shalini ((: you've made school really really fun! you know how jeremy actually teases you and says you'll be lonely if i'm not around, well just so you know, same goes for me. without you in school, the day just seems to drag cause there's no one around to do the silly things you do or say the craziest things you say! and then, no one goes, "OH MY GOD I AM FATIGUE-ING!" hahas! i love you shalu! ((: though i disturb you all the time, you just don;t know how much you mean to me &i love you very very much!

yongwen((: no matter what i do or say, i'm just never be able to thank you enough for the things you have done for me up till date. thank you for the late night calls, listening to me whine and cry over the phone, staying on the line until i actually cry my heart out, helping me when i needed financial assistance. im really touched with everything tht you have done for me! &like how you always catch me before i fall and land hard on my face, i'll be there for you too ((: LOVES!

allison jaclyn nadirah nicole ((: you guys have made 2007 a blast, with the silly girly gossips and the mass ponning of school and lessons! haha! we were so united in doing all the wrong things! i'm so glad we all promoted ((: love you all!

desmond,jeremy &yeeyew! THE CLASS CLOWNS. despite the racist comments and sarcastic comments you guys threw at everyone of us, i really appreciate the fact that you all made lessons SO DAMN FUN! ((: &desmond, thanks again for being there when i needed help! ((:

WILDCATS ((: arisa zhiqiang kaiheng joel honren, i miss every single one of you very very much. school without you all is no fun. during breaks i can no longer find all of you in the library mugging and after school, i can't go home with you all anymore. but well, its been a tough yr for all of you studying for the A's (now is my turn!) and i hope you are all enjoying this break you have!
arisa((: you've been a gem! a super shiny sparkling gem that has brightened the whole 2007! i probably got closer to you in '07 and i feel so attached to you now! everything that happens to me, you're among the first to know! THANK YOU SO MUCH ARISA for everything, for just being there for me throughout, pulling me out of the bad times i had, knocking sense into me and making me a stronger person! ((: you always think you're ot good enough to be a friend, but still, you're the best i've ever had ((: MWAHS! miss you!

zhiqiang ((: there's no one to take the 7.07 train with me every morning to school. there's no one around school gullible like you where i can fool you a million times and you fall into my trap each and every time! thank you for putting up with my nonsense all the time! ((:

peiru((: i only got closer to you this year and i have no regrets getting closer to you! you gentle voice and slutty behavior has made you such a lovable person! and your nature is just so great that you take everything that comes to you positively and somehow or another you always try your best to be there for all your friends! ((: you're one in a million!

THE GUYS. joel kaiheng honren ((:, the bunch of jokers, public nuisance, the racist jokes, the crazy things you guys did that made me smile, thank you so much for it all! ((:

ravin((: dearest cousin, i better add you in the list or you might just jump off the cliff! HAHA ((: anyways, like always, over the years, you have always been by my side helping me sort out every difficulty i had, giving me the best of advices, making me think practically ((: whenever i have a problem, it just feels so good to know that you're just a call away! (: THANK YOU!

JAG ARVEEN KARAN! ((: i made my confessions to you guys face to face so here's just to say I LOVE YOU ALL VERY MUCH! ((: JAG, 13 years and going strong (: karan, come home soon, i miss you! (:

last but not the least
ROHAN ((: like i said in previous posts, you were not the guy i used to hang out with in school but yet through messages and msn conversations, i've come to realise that you're the true-est friend i've ever had ((: thanks for always being that person i could trust all my problems with, giving me advice to help me move on with life. im sorry for teasing you with _ _ _ _ _ all the time though. HAHAS (: just like you to know, i can never find the words to show how much gratitude i have for the things you have done for me ((: thank you! you really helped me a hell lot!

a little late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ((: may 2008 be a better year for every single one of us! (:

ooh, &i was wondering, why not add in my birthday wishlist! ((: im a tad bit too demanding but what to do, i'm a girl (: beautiful pple, pick ur choice (: hahas! joking!
- topshop voucher ((:
- silver/ black clutches ((:
- BAGS ((:
- swatch watch ((:
- anklet ((:
- burberry brit perfume ((:
- guess wallet ((:
- &finally, a day out with toiletgang, wildcats, 128, jag&arveen & YOU (((: