FRIENDSTER FEATURED FRIENDS ((:

k damn bored right now, and this is probably the only entertaining thing to do at 2.01am! ((:
so my lucky friendster featured friends, read ok ((:

1. What do you think about your 2nd
featured friend.
A: [carisa] very very pretty, lucky cause she has really nice boyf!

2 .Do you like ur 1st featured friend?
A: [arisa] nope, don like her. love her ((:

3. How long have u been friends with
your 3rd featured friend?
A: [farah] two years.

4. Are you chatting with any of
your featured friends right now?
A: nope.

5. Is your 3rd featured friend close to
you?
A: [farah] used to be i guess?

6. How many of your featured friends
are in the same school as you?
A: i think only 1, peiru. arisa& kaiheng graduated? fadhil, let's not even get there =p

7. If you were to choose one of your
featured friends to be your
girlfriend/boyfriend, who would you
choose?
A: hmms, minus all the girls i am left with kaiheng and fadhil. kaiheng's attached? so not much of a choice there? hahas!

8. When was the last time you went
out with any of them?
A: arisa: recently to far east ((: carisa: been months. farah: been months. kaiheng- DECADES. peiru- been weeks. fadhil- been months? maybe 1 and half?

9. Among them, who did you last talked
to?
A: arisa on the phone, peiru on msn.

10. Who are your featured friends?
A: arisa, carisa, farah, kaiheng, peiru, fadhil

11. If you were to talk bad about
someone on your featured friend list,
who will it
be?
A: some things are better left unsaid.

12. Who knows you best among them?
A: arisa

13.Have you ever met any of
the featured friends parents before?
A: arisa's and farah's

14.Who is the last featured friend on
your profile?
A: muhd fadhil bin musa (promoting him to another spot soon ((:)

15. Any of your featured friends
attached?
A: arisa, carisa, kaiheng &fadhil

Tuesday's science center dna workshop was boring to the max! thank god for nicole, jac, yongwen, desmond &veenee for being there to make things a little bit more fun! i mean besides the super cool machines i got to lay my hands on, and hearts that yongwen and i were making out of the agar plates that was supposedly supposed to be used for the experiments, everything else was boring especially the lecturer patrick. well the main highlight of tuesday was enchanted! ((: so after the dna workshop, went to jurong point and watched enchanted!

yeapps, typical fairytale with the normal happy endings which you don't really get to experience in reality. the movie was pretty damn good la, i think the lead actress (i swear i still don't know what her name is, someone can enlighten me) was so cute! hahas! the movie had sweet and simple message that we people still don't see.

then after the movie, went over to ravin's place for stayover! as usual stayovers spells out fun. x-box, teevee till late nights, falling asleep on the sofas! then yest, evening went to the airport to send lucky ass sunny off to london for a month! bitch, i'm still freaking jealous. ARGH.

today slack at home la ((:

tomorrow going to the airport again cause dearest karan is flying off to US for 4 months! DAMN! and again, its just him and friends. see, told you boys are lucky! mum wont even let me out of the hose for 4 days straight in a row! :(
&yes karan, i'll miss you very very very much and i'll try my best not to cry when i send you at the airport! HAHAS ((: mwacks!

sucky feeling?

you know those moments when you sit &stone, thinking back about the times you shared with someone you like. like you know thinking about the times you guys laughed together over something silly and then soon you discover yourself smiling to yourself. but not long after, you realise that your cheeks are warm and your tears are rolling and you're choked to tears.

like you wish for those moments to come back, but you know they're far fetched and things just get worst every time, and we get further from the ones we like and eventually you just fade in their minds once they walk out of your life.

its that suffocating feeling you get when you like someone.

&yet as much as you try to get rid of those thoughts to end the suffocation, it fucking lingers.

this feeling sucks but soon you get used to it, and you feel strange when you don't feel it.

ahh, you won't get me

anyway this post is not meant to imply anything and its not particularly meant for anyone ((:

ANYWAY, my lucky cousin went to london for a freaking month to RELAX HIS MIND before NS! ahhhhhs! its so good to be a boy cause then you can travel alone with your friends! DAMN! :((

arisa nomura is pure love ((:

ATTENTION!
I'M CRAVING FOR NEWTON CIRCUS SATAY, STINGRAY AND MEE GORENG RIGHT NOW :(( kind soul/souls that are willing to give me company, please text me ((:

today i FINALLY got to meet arisa ever since her Alevels ended! &yeahhs it felt so good to just see her again, the same old arisa with the biggest pineapple plantation in the world, the same cute and blur expressions she gives when she is shocked, the funny things she does, the ways she goes "oh you know, you know, you know" and then doesn't complete the rest of the sentence. HAHAS! adorable! and best of all, i got to meet her khiew zhi qiang as well that never fails to amuse me with his funny antics and high levels of creativity and imagination! for example,

arisa: oh you know, in facebook you can throw sheeps at people.
zhiqiang: huh then what happens when the other person open their profile, the sheep flies out of the screen and goes BAAAAAA? (with hand actions and facial expressions of shock!)

HAHAS ((: love them!

before meeting arisa &zhiqiang, met yongwen and accompanied her till the rest joined her for dinner!

i sold my white slide phone today and i was a little sad to part with the phone cause its quite a cool phone actually but it died on me! :( don't really like my new phone though, not my kind of phone but got it on impulse cause i couldn't possibly live without a phone. SIGHS.

absence makes the heart grow fonder.

i feel so angry at myself now,
cause i'm a fucking good for nothing friend,
who can't help my friends when they are in need.

fuck

i am c-r-u-s-h-e-d.

but its alright, see me SMILE ((:

someday we'll know

super random pictures from my phone!

who says they're emo?

Love has absolutely no boundaries! hahahs!

the heels desmond paid for! ((:

the night of 128's class bbq! the rain was pouring. with just an umbrella and a paper plate, demond, jeremy and yeeyew made a fire this big. IN THE POURING RAIN AND HOWLING WIND mind you.

128's ah lians! ((:

&so 128's bbq was pretty alright i guess though the rain suddenly poured with no warning whatsoever. yet, the rain didn't quite dampen the atmosphere of the bbq and in fact it felt as though the rain kinda made things more fun with the guys actually trying their best to still barbecue chicken wings in the heavy rain! it's quite sad actually when we constantly hear that the class is going to be split up next year cause there's not enough of us to maintain the class. though 128 has like different cliques on normal school days, somehow when we meet up for class gatherings and stuff, we just blend in pretty well with each other and i know we still do love each other's company very much. its so hard to imagine a class without shalini, jeremy, desmond, yongwen, allison, nicole, dirah &jaclyn! damnit, hope the school keeps us as 228! &thanks yongwen for making the bbq possible with the countless emails you sent out to all of us just to get this organised! ((: love you truckloads! i'll help u plan the dec 10 bbq!

21st November ((: HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHUL!
he's 10 already, but he's still my baby! ((:

rahul's birthday was really really fun, more like my birthday, hahas cause i got to choose what i wanted to do for the day since he let me! HAHAS! so yeahhs, lunched at crystal jade with mummy, rahul &jag then came home and rahul's friends came over for some mini party. NOISY LIKE FUCK. then dinnered at spageddies in the evening with dad, cut cake when we got home. then the next day, went out for cafe cartell with ravin and shawn then played arcade, &&&&
GINNY THRASHED 3 GUYS AT DAYTONA AND EMERGED FIRST! YES!!! 1st! HAHAHS!

ooh and im getting a new phone soon, cause apparently my phone is quite critically ill now! mummy's in a good mood, must take advantage. still torn between what phone to get but most probably w910i ((: hoorays!

besides that the holidays have been pretty boring? i've been slacking at home with my brother every damn day wasting my life either in front of the laptop or drowning myself in countless dvd's. and not to mention, i go to bed at ard 3 or 4am and only wake up after 12.

ENCHANTED'S OUT! I WANNA WATCH ((:

you completely know the power that you have.

I MISS YOU.
you're as busy as a bee.

the reason i don't blog anymore is cause i know, you don't read anymore.

HELLO ((:

currently watching the american music awards for the third time in the day and i still can't get enough of rihanna&neyo's hate that i love you so performance and sugarlands collaboration with beyonce performing irreplaceable! i swear the performances just sweep me off my feet and bring me to a whole different world! and alicia keys was fucking hotsex too! her dancing was beyong words! &&&i cried when beyonce won the international award! HAHAS! ((:

SHE'S SO PRETTY ((:

those who havent watched it, quick quick go catch it kaes! this years AMA is a must watch! ((:

OH! and DESMOND IS GOD ((: hahas! i think i need to scream to the world at how nice my friends actually are. desmond, yongwen and i went to town on sat and i fell in love with this heels at far east but i was low with cash. AND DESMOND WAS SO SWEET! he insisted that i got it. like he said it would be an early bday gift and all! hahas! and in the end, i didnt accept it as a bday gift, just told him to help me get it first and i'll pay him back and he instantaneously passed me the money to get it! HAHAS! GOD!! i have nice lovely friends! ((: -beams!

ALRIGHT! many other things to blog about but for now this will do!
128's class bbq tmr! ((:

i used to think you were everything.
and perhaps i still do.

every reason to love them!

so today jaclyn, nicole, jeremy and demond went to watch the movie bratz! and i was speaking to them online and here's what i got..

WITH JACLYN((:
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
IT WAS OMGGGG HELLL
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
heehees
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
the storyline can't get worse
like an angel heaven let me think was you says:
and the lines are cheesy to the maxxxxxxx

NICOLE((:
Nicole says:
and we watched bratz!
Nicole says:
its the most traumatizing experience ever!
Nicole says:
omg dont watch it!
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
really?
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
why whywhy!
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
its not nice?!
Nicole says:
ya i am serious me desmond jac and jeremy groan throughout the whole movie!
Nicole says:
hahhasthe storyline was so cheesy omg!
Nicole says:
hahas i mean you can watch it yourself!
Nicole says:
its almost like a horror movie hahas
Nicole says:
hahhas i mean you can watch and find out for yourself!
Nicole says:
hahahas its damn horrible i swear omgggg i almost pulled all my hair out!

JEREMY((:
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
how was bratz!
mr fahrenheit- - says:
intellectually stimulating
GINNY ((: sibuk "bermain" dengan kanak-kanak says:
ahahahhahahahahahah! really that bad?
mr fahrenheit- - says:
i would have rather been in church
mr fahrenheit- - says:
anyway when my butt itchy means got sickness coming up
mr fahrenheit- - says:
"SCRATCH SCRATCH"
mr fahrenheit- - says:
"SNIFF SNIFF"

DESMOND((: (phone conversation)
after watching the movie, i have learnt to appreciate the finer things in life like the birds humming, i came home and gave my dad a great big hug. -desmond.

now tell me you love them too! HAHAHS!
ok so no more bratz for me! i don wanna be traumatized!
but i still wanna watch stardust! )):

you're the best i ever had ((:

Sometimes I find it so crazy. Cause we never had anything special between us from the start, or for that matter of fact, neither did we have a smooth sailing friendship between us from the start. Then explain to me why its still so hard to let go, why is it that after all this while that we've been apart, i still hold on strongly to the feelings i have for you? Its impossible, I can't go on like that. I can't go on holding on to something that's not meant to be. I don't know how do i tell you that I can't seem to part from you. You've become an addiction, my whole life revolves around you. Around my close friends, you're all I talk about. When i'm watching tv, i think about what you might be doing. Every night before i sleep, i read your messages in my phone. When i wake up every morning, I check my phone in hopes of receiving a message from you. I try my best to occupy myself with so many things, just trying to get you off my mind even if its just for a minute. I've really tried my best to break away from you. But i've never been good at it, i've just never been able to let go of people i love easily. It makes me miserable but strangely i've grown use to this feeling. I have a strange love hate relationship with you. Sometimes I thank god for letting me meet you in this lifetime cause you gave me a new lease of life. When i was troubled, and poured my problems out to you, you were never there to catch me fall, you shunned me away, but somehow you being around, just your presence helps me overcome everything. But then again, there are times that i hate you, times that i wish i never knew you cause of the mean things you did. And i know the reasons of all ur mean actions, you'd just like me to get over you soon enough so you don't feel burdened by my feelings towards you. If only you knew what its like to really love someone to an extent that you're willing to do just so much for that one person. People tell me you're mean, you're a bastard, you're an asshole, you're not worth it, I listen to them and agree with them at times, but deep down i know you're not. Deep down i know, you're just one of the nicest human beings around. Well, whatever the matter is, I'd just never want to lose you completely. I've lost you as someone i love, hopefully i don't lose you as a friend.

&as for now, memories of the laughter we shared, silly arguments we had and stuff we did are enough to keep me smiling. Thoughts of what could have been kill me sometimes.

iloveyou

KAES, sorry emo post entry. good night ((: breakfast tmr at 9 with jac, nicole and allison!

I THINK MY 128 ROCKS SOCKS! ((: &so i love them!

PART 1 ((:

POST-PROMO TIMETABLE.

when yj says intensive, they mean it.128 is probably the most attentive class in chem lectures!
AND AND i can testify to that!
WARNING!
THE FOLLOWING PICTURE MAY DISGUST VIEWER!
& so today peiru brought many many childhood memories back for me cause she bought the bubble tube and straw and so i was so happily blowing bublles away! kinda like no childhood kinda attitude right? but you know what, i wasn't alone! I HAD ACCOMPLICES!Dirah's SNOWMAN! ((:OH NO! poor dirah!
her snowman developed a tumour!Snowman's tumour became a shower cap!
&he went for a boob job!
RIP SNOWMAN.

there's still a prt 2 to this post, which will be up soon!

Why am I hanging on
To such a memory
Too strong that I can't let go even though I'm trying
With the happiness
You're telling me when we will ever be what we used to be again

Now tell me what am I gonna do
Can't escape right 'cause I think of you
I close my eyes, I see your face, makes me alone
Just make me wanna take a breath and take it
It's a rush
Flashbacks dreaming about the both of us
Do I really wanna wake up
Oh no 'cause when I do you're not with me
That's when reality hits me
I get weak in the knees, can't function me
No, can't breathe
My friends see changes in me
Always be dreaming if once be
If still today be a part of a heart, always will be
Your beautiful soul and smile is all I need

My mind has been so tired
I have no words to say
I'm feelin' so frustrated
I wish I could walk away
So now what am I supposed to do
Without you here with me
I'm going in and out
I'm feelin up and down
So baby hear when I say

All of my life
I've waited for someone like you
I feel it when I look at you
In your eyes I see the truth
All of my life
I've spent day and day just loving you
And when you're away, I'm missing you
Now tell me what am I gonna do

All of my life
I'll give you everything you'll ever need
Always be a part of me
You're the reason that I breathe
All of my life
I've spent day and day just loving you
And when you're away, I keep missing you
Now tell me what am I gonna do

HELLO!

Today morning, accompanied Allison to Macs to finally satisfy her craving of double cheeseburger and fries! Sat down and crapped for a bit before heading home! ANYWAY I AM HERE TO DECLARE MY LOVE FOR ALLISON KOAY! Something happened and i ended up crying and Allison told me to wait at the bus stop on the pretext that she's going to get water for herself, but when she came back to the bus stop, she was holding a rose! AHHHHHH! at that moment, i swear i just wanted to cry, i was so touched! She's so sweet! ((: I consider myself really lucky somehow cause I have so many people like her around that are always around to catch me when i fall. ((:

ALLISON & ME, with the rose ((:

(pardon my eyes, i just cried!)

Anyways people meet my new found love!

ANTONIO!

so for those of you that know me well enough, you would know that i am quite a sucker for cute babies! hahas! i love him. im gonna cry on monday when he goes back to US. :(

OKAY PEIRU I BLOGGED TWO POSTS FOR YOU! ((:

8th Nov Pictures! ((:

Valencia Poh Swee Ting & me!Dad, Rahul, Uncle, Me

5 years and going strong!

You have no idea how much i love her.

FOOD ((:

I'm never leaving my camera unattended again!
KYLE SIM!

Mary, Shihui, me, Peiru

pretty pretty!

MARY'S THE BEST!

ASSHOLE!

caught game plan on tuesday with MFBM!
the movie was hilarious and heartwrenching so you could often find me either laughing or crying. its about how a man realises that this girl that he has not known is his daughter for 8 years, finally realises that she is the best thing that has ever happened to him! YES JAG I DID THIS ON PURPOSE, TO SPOIL THE STORY FOR YOU! hahahs! ((:

there are so many movies i wanna watch!
-stardust (pruny says its nice, so shall trust her and go watch la)
-enchanted
-bratz!
-good luck chuck
-alvin &th chipmunks

today didn't go to school. in the morn, followed dad ang jag to mendaki, then had nasi lemak breakfast! came back chopped onions, diced tomatoes, made chilli paste, cut mutton, washed chicken, marinated chicken, washed the corridor, baked 4 different cakes, made agar-agar, changed bedsheets. TIRING LIKE FUCK! then slept from 3 to 6 plus? got up, went to buy dinner with peiru, ate, played whistling sparklers.

tomorrow, TEMPLE, finally after one year! hahahahs!

HAPPY DIWALI LOVES ((:

if only everything is easier done than said.

Dear fisherboy,
I like you very very much.
Time has passed, you've left and gone on a separate path, yet here i am holding on to something that EVERYONE knows is not meant to be. I can no longer tell my friends that I'm crazy for you cause they're sick of telling me that I'm such a fool holding on to someone who has absolutely no feelings for me, someone who'll probably never see the good in me. But you see they don't understand that despite it all, you're probably the only one that makes me whole again, the one that makes me smile genuinely. You meet new people everyday, and you tell me how each of them like you as well. Im not jealous but it just makes me whole my feelings back further cause I wonder what makes me think that you're actually gonna choose me over the rest? HAHAS, fat hope. I don't know if you're attached or your heart's for another. Everyday, I long to hear from you either through a call, message or chat and when i finally gather enough courage to chat with you over on msn, somehow i just feel that i'm being an irritant and you just wanna get rid of me. I find every other reason to meet you sometimes. You just don't get what its like to be in my shoes. I'll never be able to tell you this perhaps but i'd just wish for you to know that you're someone that can really make me happy and i'd do anything i can to see you happy as well. i'll probably never be able to tell you that i like you and you're never going to have such feelings for me too, so well isn't it time i realise that we're not meant to be and letting go is the best option?

the mind says let go, the heart says hold on.
maybe i'm still wishing for a miracle.
Sometimes i wish i was her.

I try to sleep
But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me
A thousand more regrets unraveling
If you were here right now,
I swear I'd tell you this

Baby I don't wanna waste another day
Keepin it inside, it's killing me
Cause all I ever wanted comes right down to you
I wish that I could find the words to say
Baby I would tell you, every time you leave
I'm inconsolable

I climb the walls
I can see the edge,
But I can't take the fall, no
I've memorized the number
So why can't I make the call

I don't wanna be like this
I just wanna let you know
That everything I hold in
Is everything I can't let go

I CUT MY HAIR TODAY ((:

MEANS NOW GINNY HAPPY! :D